My best friend

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My best friend in the whole entire world. I miss her. I miss her soo much. I feel likes she has only been gone a few days and she has already changed so much. She cut her hair, she is wearing uniforms, behaving, wtf is happening. I know, i know, call me a terrible person for not being happy for her but, have you ever heard the saying, "Be careful what you wish for because it might all come back to bite you in the ass?"
Well, there you go. Ever since i've known her, All I wanted was for her to grow the hell up. And now she did. I mean, I got what I wanted right? Here she is.

I shouldnt have ever.
I love the way she was. I LOVE who she is. I love her spontaneity and unpredictiality. I love how no one could tame her. Or make her do anything she didnt want to do. I miss that.

And I really hope I dont lose that. I want her to stay exactly who she is. I want all my friends and they know who the are, to stay exactly who they are. And never change.

Its bad enough that I have to do stuff without her. But now, Im not even sure if I can text her and get the same person i would have 3 months ago.

I was so desperate to get her to act older than she was, grow up and just take responsibility that I didnt take the time to realize that I actually appreciated her for everything that she is. Always have. Always will.

She is my best friend. And no one can replace her. NO ONE. But, I'm really gonna fucking miss her. An im glad because she seems happy and she was soo miserable here. Im just glad shes alright and she doesnt pull any of her dangerous stunts where she is now. Because us here, her friends, her family, will take that from her. Im sure they will.

Goodnight, or rather goodmorning seeing as its 4:55 a.m.

XOXO, DANANDPHILDOM

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