@Causeways_Prime
The only reason I said I wanted to have Jamisen's 'sparkling' was because I was grief stricken. They call it grief for a reason and I didn't exactly think about my words. And maybe because there are a lot of things that Amarys or our imaginary friends didn't know about but I've known for a long time. I've kept secrets from Amber, Predaking, Megatron, Demetrius, Charlotte, Marley and everyone else. I only dated Jamisen out of the kindness of my heart. I can care less if people all call him a womanizer. I'm stubborn but I'm also too quiet. I'm too much of a pain in the neck for people to handle. Not my fault I decided to just go and actually choose everything below me. I don't know why I talk to Jess but I just do it because I always assume Destiny's busy or something. Either that or I just don't talk to Jess at all. I've protected Jess from Amarys because Jess is my little sister. I've talked to Amarys because I've tried to get her to stop. What's the harm in that? I don't even know why I've been crying and scratching myself out of irritation and anger. Maybe because Destiny's been mad at me for a huge amount of time. What's the point in actually having a big sister who's gonna hate you all your life? Believe me, I've had a whole lot of pressure and stress on my shoulders. I was helping Jess because I was trying to be a good big sister. Don't see why Amarys has to make such a big deal out of it. Don't get me wrong, I love her very much and I really want to see her but I do want everything to be normal. There's nothing wrong with that, is there?
