Taewon pushed her off him. "I can't. Your papa would kill me. Besides you don't want it, you just want to be clingy and—"
Hayoon was crying. "I hate you. You never talked to me. You left me and never visited me in the hospital."
"Yoons, I was trying to make things right."
"— but I needed a friend. I needed my bestfriend and you abandoned me."
"You dad threatened to kill me in front of my mom. What do you expect me to do? You're acting like a bitch again. Have you ever thought how I felt seeing you died in my arms?! How I felt when I thought I'll never see you open your eyes again?"
"But you told me you love me. Was that a lie?" Hayoon looked at his shocked face. "Heeyoung told me— but I remember your voice. Okay— I really don't remember anything but you love me right? Not as a friend. You mean it?"
He wanted to tell her he did mean it. It wasn't a lie, but seeing her losing her heartbeat rob him of his courage. Until now, he wasn't able to find it. The courage to let go and let things fall into place.
"Sometimes I wish we didn't grow up together. Maybe— maybe you can see me in a different light." Hayoon said as she covers herself with a blanket.
Taewon closed his eyes tightly and lay beside her hugging her waist. She didn't moved and waited. He kissed her nape slowly while his hands travelled to her chest.
He pushed her on her back and looked her in the eye before taking her lips. They both stopped to take off their shirt and when he saw her naked torso, he grunted.
"Fuck me, why does every part of your body have to be fucking perfect." With that Taewon took one of the peak in his mouth while he grabbed the waistband of her underwear.
When Taewon kneeled in front of her to removed his belt. She took his hands off it and unbuckle it herself. When she pulled down his boxers, she stopped.
"Shit."
"Shit what?" Taewon asks panting.
"Shit you weren't lying when you said porn star dicks don't intimidate you."
"It's okay." Taewon smiled proudly.
"OKAY? IT'S LIKE YOU HAVE A BABY'S ARM HANGING BETWEEN YOUR LEGS!"
"Really Yoons? A baby? It's at least like a toddler."
"Fuck, Wonwon. It's big but not that big. I—" Hayoon hesitated. "Did you ever managed to— like to — a girl?"
Taewon scratches his head. "Sometimes."
"Sometimes? What?" Hayoon widened his eyes at him.
"Sometimes they just scream and push me off— But I think you could take it. I mean, you will right? For me?"
Hayoon looked down and looked at Taewon's face and then looked down again. She grimaced at Taewon.
Taewon began to pull up his boxer again but Hayoon stopped. "We can try."
She then grab and lick it from the base to its head, Taewon shivered and before he knew it, threads of white liquid came spurting out of his member.
"Oh no! No! Shit! Fuck! Nooo!!!" Taewon shouted in disappointment.
Hayoon was already laughing as she was wiping the liquid off her face. "Tsk. I thought I'm gonna lose my virginity tonight. Never thought of you as premature—"
