If my brother is missing, I would instantly knew where he would be.
I climbed up the fire escape on our second floor and went two flights up. When I grabbed his legs on my way up he immediately shriek.
"Jesus Christ! Jay!" He said holding his chest with one hand and his cigarette on the other.
"Can you put that out first before I joined you?" I said and he gave me the look. He immediately took another hit and flickered the ember of his cigarette. He reached for me and pulled me up and as soon as we're on the same level he cletched his jaw.
"Jay don't tell me—"
"I don't need questions, I don't need condescending remarks, I don't need you asking me for explanation. I need my brother. Can you give that to me?" I immediately said.
"Fuck! It's true?!"
"I learned just now. When you vanished. I just need someone Kai. Otherwise I'll burst out."
"And you climbed that stairs? What if you slip? You stupid shit!"
"You seemed to be caring then you called me stupid shit!" I said pushing him slightly.
"What do you need me for? Want me to die as I tell papa?" He said.
"No, if you help me and papa discovers, he'll be mad at you as well. I just feel like I'm gonna simultaneously combust if I don't tell anyone." I said as I looked beyond the railing.
"For someone who learned a pivotal moment of her life you seem in control. I always admire that about you." He said as he rub my back. "Who's the dead man our father will crucify?"
"I don't know."
"He will crucify him for sure. If he doesn't plan on helping you out, he'll crucify him in the center of Myeongdong district."
"No— I don't know who the father is."
"When did you became a slut?"
"Wow! Question that demands an explanation clearly a condescension. All in one sentence Kai! God I wish I could drink alcohol, smoke and jump at this railing at the same time." I said trying to control my tears.
"Is it one of our uncles?" Kai asked.
"What?! Fuck you. No!"
"I know you know who the father is Jay. You just don't want to get him in trouble." Kai said.
Then Yeonwoo came out of our house, opening the car door for Irene. He looks inside one last time before getting into the driver's seat.
"I wish you two have gotten together. I think he's the only one who could face Papa and ask him to date you." Kai said when he noticed I was looking at them.
"Yeah, me too." I wish that he loves me to actually ask Papa to date me. "Too late for that now, though."
——
Chanyeol and Bambam blocked the driver's seat door as the fold their arms in front of me. "Get away from my car or I'll shout that you two are gay for each other."
"Jay, it's the perfect plan. Why don't you just say yes?" Bambam asks.
"Because I don't want my father to become a murderer?" I said as I pushed them off but they don't budge.
