giant book of 5sos imagines

the boxer - cth

"Come on Calum, lets go take a bath" I lightly brushed his curls from his forehead before standing to try and move my 6 foot boyfriend. He groaned pulling himself up off the couch. I held his hand as I walked him down the hallway to our shared bathroom. He leaned against the wall and watched me move from one place to another. Faucet on, lay out towels, some bubbles, and then back to Calum. A routine of almost every night, I don't complain because when I look at him I see the giggly Calum drunkily dancing in the kitchen, I see the Calum who would kiss me into oblivion because he hasn't seen me for a day, I see the man I'm in love with. I walked to Calum and he pushes himself from the wall, I grab the bottom of his shirt gently pulling it over his head making me stand on my tippy toes to get it over his head. He was sore, every move he groaned in pain. When he was naked I looked at him, no not sexually even though I could but I frowned at the bruises on his chest and tummy. He watched me with blank eyes. I grabbed his hand pulling him to the tub and he winced lifting his legs and putting himself in the water. He leaned back, hissing as he fully submerged himself in water. I turned the water off and I put my arms up on the side and laid my head on my hands and watched him. We stared at each other not really any reason to we just did. "Mm get in" He spoke so quietly like someone else would here. "Hm?" I shot back. He lifted his arms out the water and grabbed the sides of the tub slowly pulling himself up causing his face to wince. He sat up and said "G-get in....you never get in with me" He looked at with puppy eyes or maybe they were the same and I was just hoping for more. I listened and stood turning around, I pulled my underwear off and lifted my shirt over my head. I turned back around and gripped the tub putting myself behind him. My legs wrapped around him and I let my fingers rub into his back gently. Causing tiny moans as I rubbed his shoulders. He leaned backwards to lay on me and I let him. His arms rested on my legs and his head on my breasts. His eyes were closed the whole time as I ran my hands down his chest, stopping to gently trace his tattoos with my fingernail.
"Why do you do it?" He asked not opening his eyes. I looked down at him and simply answered "I love you" His lips went into small smile "Just that?" He opened his eyes and looked up at me "This is the first real contact I've had with you in over a month, I have almost no strength unless it's before a match, I haven't kissed you in so long, and I haven't....you know, and you still open the door to do this for me?" I shrugged and nodded at him not really having much to say back to him. "I'm sorry" he whispered and before I could say anything else he kept talking "Don't say it's okay because I'm choosing this shit over you and you know that's not me, I love the rush, taking out all my frustrations but when I'm in that moment I'm not thinking, what about my girlfriend who cleans me up and feeds me and makes me even physically ready for the next day?, You don't even protest it, why?" I ran my fingers up his arms. "You choose to go and do this, protest would've only ended up in fighting because you know that you would've left any way no matter how many times I would've tried to stop you" I flicked my eyes back to his and he looked kind of sad at my response. "Why didn't you just leave me? I deserve it" I sighed "You do deserve it and you don't deserve this treatment from me but I look at you and still see the Calum I met in a dingy supermarket, the one with the dopey smile that carried my groceries to my car while simultaneously hitting on me at the same time" I chuckled. He just looked at me, silence filled the room after my comment. He closed his eyes as I ran my hands over him causing him to slowly drift off to sleep on my chest and as the water grew cold I shook him awake. He got out first, screwing his face together and I followed his actions. I padded to the bathroom door before looking back at my boyfriend who was staring at me. "Lets go to bed" I coerced "I wanna carry you" he stared at me "Calum I don't think-" he interrupted turning towards me "I'm fine, I'm sore but I'm fine and I just wanna carry you to bed" I sighed looking at him trying to talk him out of it silently. He walked to me and leaned a bit wrapped around my towel covered waist lifting me and I put my legs around him and arms around his neck. He groaned and then he stopped and looked at me before gently kissing me, lazily making out with me the whole way to the bedroom. "Mm you taste so good, I missed your kisses" he hummed against my mouth before putting me on the ground. I walked to our closet grabbing him boxers and me just a shirt. I slipped the shirt over my head and threw him his boxers. He caught them, and groaned while putting them on. I watched him lazily walk to our bed and throw himself under covers. I walked around just picking stuff up "come kiss me to sleep" I looked at him cuddled up in bed. I walked around turning our little lights off and climbed into bed with him, his arms wrapped around my waist pulling me as close as I could get. I pressed my lips to his and I brought my hand up to gently cup his face. I put my leg over his waist getting comfortable. He whispered "I love you" He slowly pecked my lips till he fell asleep, I put my forehead to his and closed my eyes letting my fingers run through his damp curls, before I fell asleep with him.