giant book of 5sos imagines

f*** love - lrh

I fucking hate love. Everyone who I love has turned on me that includes my father. I don't keep in contact with family and I don't have friends. I'd rather have meaningless sex than have my heart broken anymore. My only friend is Luke, Luke Hemmings. I was an asshole too him till I realized he was never gonna leave me alone till I became his friend. I only ever hang out with Luke and Luke knows exactly how I am and how I live. He accepts it but he always does these things and I hate them. He stares at me like I'm a diamond. He listens when I talk to him and never interrupts. He never yells at me or gets angry. He lets me take my anger out on him even if it's physical. He holds me while I cry. He does all these things and I hate them because they make my heart flutter and I don't want that feeling. It's a dangerous feeling when he looks at me and I wanna kiss him. I shouldn't want to do that. I know it wouldn't be meaningless and I don't want him to get hurt I don't want to hurt him he's too fragile. I push myself away and he always right there again.

Right now we are sitting in the back of the library while I'm reading but I'm not reading I'm just thinking. I glance up at Luke and he playing with his phone and he looks effortlessly gorgeous. The blonde hair and the scruff on his chin. His broad shoulders look so good in the black long sleeve shirt he was wearing. I find myself staring at his lips, they are a perfect pink color and they always look so soft.

"Stop staring"

My eyes meet his crystal blue ones and I scrunch my face.

"What?"

"If I cant stare at you, you can't stare at me it's not fair"

"I wasn't staring at you"

I put my book down on the table defensively

"Yes you were you were looking right at my lips you were biting the inside of your mouth and everything"

I roll my eyes

"Whatever"

He laughs at me and grabs the book off the table.

"That's mine, give it back"

I stand up rounding the table towards him and he pulls it from my reach.

"Can I please have it back?" I raised my eyebrow holding out my hands

He held it out too me and I grabbed it but he didn't let go of it and I yanked it but it didn't budge.

"Luke let it go" I looked up at him and he was staring with those eyes. God I hate it. His lips were in a tiny side smile.

"Stop staring"

"No"

"Luke, we have an agreement"
"
Shush, I'm tired of that agreement"

"Okay but-"

He put his hand on the side of my face. I grabbed his wrist lightly.

"Luke, what are you-"

He leaned down so his nose was touching mine. I gasped and stared at him, my heart was beating so fast and I put my hands on his chest pushing him slightly.

"How long are you gonna keep this up?" He whispered

"What up?"

"This love thing, they hurt you, they broke you, but me I'd never"

I pushed him a little harder but no budge

"Luke I hate love I don't ever wanna be in love again I don't want it and you? You are just my friend my only friend. I don't wanna hurt you"

"Okay then let me walk away" he stood up letting go of my face and stepping back. I know my face looked so shocked. My face scrunched up.

"Uh what?"

"If you don't care. If you don't love me as friend or more. Let me walk away. Let me walk out of this building and you go on with your life since you got it figured out"

I stood there mouth open as he turned and walked away. I felt the tears and they wouldn't stop.

"Wait" I said through my crying

"Please don't go, please"

He stopped and didn't turn around

"I don't have this figured out I hate this I hate it so much Luke but you made it better to deal with but now you're making it harder"

He turned around and walked towards me and I wiped my tears. I didn't notice he still had my book and he held it out to me. I took it and laughed wiping my eyes.

"Thanks"

He sat back were he was and I followed him and sat back down. He was staring at me and I opened my mouth to scold him but immediately stopped and stared back at him. His face was blank but I knew it was okay. Then he spoke

"I really wanna kiss you"

"Excuse me?" I said surprised and completely taken off guard.

"I want to kiss you"

"Luke I uh really don't really think-"

He pushed his chair back and stood up

"I'm gonna kiss you"

He walked towards me and leaned down putting his hands on the table and chair. I was back where I was before same feeling as before.

He put his lips on mine and I had my eyes open out of shock but then he started going faster and I closed them kissing back. I grabbed his shirt and then he stopped and I just watched him walk back to his seat. I sat there kind of missing the feeling. I looked over at him till he looked up at me.

"Oh, you didn't want me to stop?"