Longing For Love (Diff. Pov.)

The Departure Of One's Feelings

It was March. The month that ends the school year and everyone proceeds to the following school year.
In my case it was the Third Year.... Er... Junior Year of high school considering I had just finished Sophomore.

Now, the memories spent in the classroom can never be forgotten. The Christmas Party where I managed to normally interact with Kaye. The Classroom memories where the classmates would go Yieeee when ever I would try to make her smile , or when ever I would cheer her on when ever she would report or do anything. I just wanted to be there for her. All the anger that everyone had endured, all the love that everyone shared with each other and all the frustration. It was now gonna be another piece of memory of something we can't go back to anymore.

i will truly miss the Bougainians, especially her. She has made me the happiest i've ever been in my life. 

After classes , It was friday and people were gonna stop going to school unless they needed to pass some other things to pass the Quarter. I for one didn't need to pass anything so I could do anything I wanted. that included me not going to school ... well that's my plan atleast.

It was time for me to send her the message that I thought about during the Christmas Party.
It's 4:00 in the afternoon and I have so much to say yet I don't know how to start it off.
I checked her messenger and she's been offline for an hour now.

.... Alrigh this is it , It's time to do what i've wanted to do for a while now.

"Uhm hey, I just wanted to say thank you , thank you for everything, This is the first time I've ever felt anything like this...This feeling of not wanting to lose you. Kiddin hahahaha , These feelins will fade away but I don't think its gonna happen any time soon.... So right now , While im still have this feeling in my heart... I just want to say goodluck and bid you fare well. You have made me the happiest I have ever been.. I have plenty of things that I regret in my life. I dont want you to be one of those. I don't want this to be one of the things that I will regret. But I know that we can't always get the things we want ..... so i'll just be here and i'll wait for you. I want you to know that I'll be here no matter what. There's more I want to say but I would prefer it if I say those things to you personally. Once again. I thank you for everything... And I am looking forward to the day that we meet again."

Though im not satisfied with what i've written.... I want her to know these things.
After an hour of waiting she becomes online and reads the message at 5:30 pm

"Omgg , An Lsmmmmmm"  she replies.

" Are you not coming back and attending at monday?"

But I don't have anything to pass...Maybe if I can go to school even though I don't have anything to do.

" Can I still go even though I have completed my requirements?" I ask

" Yea , you can"

"Then consider me there! :)" I send to her hastely

The conversation went on for a while.... we went to another topic and then went back to it after a few minutes.

"Like I said earlier, There were things that I regret. I don't want not pursuing you to be one of those things that I end up regretting." I send.
I follow up with " Regret will always be in the end. I don't want to regret anything when it comes to you."

" Haaaaaaayys"  ...yea tell me about it.I totally feel what you're feelin right now Kaye.

"You know? I really hope that you don't forget about me, Because one day I want you to be apart of my life. You've made me the happiest person in the class. I want to atleast try to spend a portion of my life trying to make you feel the same Happiness that you made me feel." 

Something wet starts to drip down my right eye. Never thought I'd cry about this. I guess It's true then.... I guess I do love her already.

Maybe one last message before I go to sleep. I can't remain awake when I cry otherwise I lose the little energy that I only have.

" I just want you to remember, No matter where I am, No matter who I am with. If you ever need anything. Anything at all! you tell me, because I promise you that I will be here for you. Now and forever."

I figure since it's our time for everyone to leave the past and move on with new people, new grades , new school year and maybe even for others a new life.

All I know is, When I leave the Bougainia. My feelings are going to stay with her no matter what. My heart promises you that, Kaye.