Longing For Love (Diff. Pov.)

The Hope's Turn Around

It's been a few weeks since class started.

The Class Officers seemed nice since they voted mostly the same people from Kaye's class from last year.

My Friends and I came together and enrolled together and apparently so did Kaye's class.

That's not what matters though. I'm in the same class as Kaye and I will not lose this Oppurtunity again.

It's already been a few weeks and I still haven't done anything. It's time to step up my game. Maybe I'll start off doing things in person.
 I'll ask to court her in person.

Maybe I'll do it tomorrow. Considering it's the most first step thing there is.

I Spent The Night Building Up Courage

I Woke Up At 11 In The Morning

This is finally the day... and yet... I don't know how to say it. Do I just say "Hey can I start courting you again?" I honestly don't know.

I entered the bathroom at 11:30 and finished at around 12.

I made it to school with easy. I mean I had Armel and Carl on my side when I went to school so it was quite fun to say the least.

After a few minutes we arrive at the classroom 

"Hey Armel, what time is it?" I ask

"Its your time to die lol" He replies sarcastically.
He follows up with " Just kidding, Its 1:03 and sir is late again"


I'm not even bothering myself with paying attention. All that's going on with my mind is how , when and where I'm gonna ask her... 

First Class went through like a breeze. I barely learned anything but that's pretty alright with me.

Second subject

Should I just have someone ask her for me? No, that's not the way I want to do it at all. Very much not the way I want it to happen at all.
I'll do it then, I'll ask her personally! And it would really help if I got to do it alone. 

If I can ask her personally where It's just the two of us she might finally believe I'm serious about her.

Yeah....That's it.... I'll do it personally and I'm not gonna mess this up again like I messed up in the past. Once I get the Yes that I'm looking for It's gonna be all good and I can continue with my plan! I'm gonna do this and I'm gonna do this right!

Third Subject

"Hey Quas, when are you gonna tell Kaye?" Asks Kevin.

"Probably later when it's Dismissal so we can have some privacy." I tell him nervously.
I don't think I'll ever be ready for this to happen man.

"I'll do it when we're alone. I don't really need anyone butting in."

"Oh alright then,  I'll watch from somewhere okay?" He says

"Yea alright"

Probably not a good idea.


Time Passes By And I Spent All The Other Subjects Gaining Self-Confidence

"Alright Class, you may go" Says Ma'am Vasquez

Alright... this is it... It's time to go home ... so everyone is gonna leave and the Sky is dark.. The atmosphere is alright, all I need to do is just wait for everyone to leave. If I ask her in a one on one fashion I think that'll be pretty good. 

I waited outside for her to come out and for everyone else that I didn't need to leave.
After a few moments of waiting I notice that this wasn't going as planned, There were still plenty of people and I had Kevin, Armel and Dariel around me.

The path towards the stairs was clear, there were still people but it wasn't crowded.
And then I saw her.

I could feel my heartbeat fast, I wasn't ready for this.

When she passed by me , heading towards the stairs , My friends around me called her out.

"Kaye!"
"Hey Kaaaaye!"
"KAAAAYEEE!"

The only thing running on my mind was This Wasn't What I Expected

When she heard her name being called out she had stopped from her tracks and turned around.
"Yes?"

For a moment I had frozen, I didn't know what to do. There were people, It wasn't a one on one like I had anticipated."

Then I felt hands on my shoulder and back.
They were pushing me towards her, My heart racing fast.

The last thing I knew , I was faced with the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. And I didn't know what to say. So I said what was on my head.
"Uhm hey, I wanted to ask you something.." I say with a smile trying to hide the nervous wreck I am.

She looks at the person that she's with and turns back to me once more
"Okay what is it?" 

This is it.
Three years of preparation for this. Let's not mess this up again shall we? 

" I wanted to ask you i-if I could court you a-again haha" I say to her

The guy she's with was my classmate last year, But we weren't really that close,  his name is Ken.

"What the hell, Quas." Says Ken

Kaye looks at Ken and Laughs

What did I do wrong? Why did she laugh?

After laughing she then proceeded to walk towards the stairs and leave.

I walked towards my group of friends waiting at the corner and they asked me what happened.
I said
"Don't worry about it, It's part of the plan"

I could feel the tears in my eyes.
I spent 3 years gaining confidence and at that moment. I could feel all of it disappear.
Like a mask of confidence on my face suddenly breaks.

I could barely hold back my tears, I guess no matter how much I try to change myself, in the end the old me will always be inside.
 And it shows.