Longing For Love (Diff. Pov.)

Success Comes After Failure

It's been weeks ever since.... yeah... I've done some soul searching and I think after a while my heart is finally in the right place again.

I needed to take that quick break from doing all the stupid things I've done. As stupid as those things may be I'm still willing to do them... heh... as courage once said " Things I Do For Love"

It's been weeks ever since I confessed to her , Though I can't say it was any good but at least I tried.

And now I'm willing to try again! After she laughed at me I start thinking... Maybe it wasn't the right time and now I'll make sure that I do it right.

Maybe I'm seeing these things all wrong right now...  I'm gonna try a different approach.

I haven't really left my apartment in a few weeks unless it was going to school or practice so I managed to save a lot of money and I think I know just where to spend it.

But first.... I think I'll message her something.. Something really stupid but not unless god gives me a sign that I should.

"Kaye Tamine Is Active Now"

Alrayt alrayt.. Ya got me. 

I opened our conversation and waited... 

After A Few Minutes Of Waiting 

Oh shiii , she offline again. Alright I can ask my question now... I won't have to be afraid anymore.

"Heyyy uh... I need to ask you something and please be honest , don't worry about anything else" 
God damn I have plenty of Guts.

" Do I have a chance?"

I know nothing good will come out of this but I might as well try and find out right? haha
and so I closed my eyes and pressed the send button.
That's it.  I guess we're doing this right now.

After A Few Minutes She Comes Online Again

"Honestly? No, I'm sorry but there's none."  Oof. Can't say I'm surprised though.

"I actually I don't want anyone to court me yet"
"I just don't want to anymore, I've learned my lesson ehh"

Mann, That Allen dude lost the most amazing girl I've ever seen and left her like this. 

Maybe....... Let me try this.
"If there's none now.... Can there be one in the future?" I know.... I probably look desperate but I can't help it... I'm more than willing to wait. No matter how long.... as long as I know I'm actually waiting for something   

"Maybe in the future, But not now." 
hm... I see.

"Then I'll still be here, I understand what happened between you and ahem" 
I'll wait. Even if it looks like I'm waiting for nothing and even If it seems like everything is hopeless I'll wait. 
Shes worth the wait.

Anyways... about that different approach... Maybe I'm rushing into things way too much... 

For now I'll let her know the things she's done to me, the happiness she's made me feel... Maybe at the very least... I could make her happy too.. though I don't see it happening... I might as well try.

And so , all the savings I've spend had went into food, Chocolates to be specific. And then I'm still pondering on whether I should write a letter or just say it to her. Either way... I'll not mess up this time.

Time Skip Towards Monday's Recess

It's recess and I've got the chocolates in my bag.

"Hey Kevin, I've got an idea and I might need your help." 

I say to a Kevin , One of the best friends I've made ever since the first grading.

"Oh what's that?" He says to me

"So I bought two toblerones and one big heart shaped ferrero rocher"  All I need to do is to give this to her and tell her the things that's been on my mind.

"Meeeh, Just give it to her right now it's recess"  Says Kevin , Hopefully in a jokingly manner.

WHUT NOO , MY PLAAAAAN

"Yoyoyo, no , no bueno , me not go okeh? okay? Olay? enguard? hotel? trivago" I say to kevin very fast.

And then I felt hands on my wrists, They started to pull me towards Kaye but I resisted.
I needed this to go exactly the way I had planned.

They taped the two toblerones together so it wouldn't be problematic giving to her and wasting her time.  It's 4:29 now and next subject teacher had just arrived.

Two subjects had passed and nothing related to the plan happened.
Its now last subject and it's time for us to go to the computer room.

"Kevin, mind telling Kaye to stay a bit? I want to do this one on one like I originally planned"

I think he understood and talked to Kaye.

The cleaners had just finished cleaning
and she's all thats left , Kevin and Armel are behind the doors.

I take small breathes and slowly approach her.

The atmosphere is perfect.
The entire room is empty,