Healing ✔️ (Natsu x Reader)

Decision

I kiss Natsu and he kisses me back. I am enveloped in a warm feeling I haven't felt in a really long time.

Maybe it is time to move on.

Then memories hit me. Memories of my ex that died. Me and him were just like this. I want to experience this again but what if it ends up being a repeat? I can't lose Natsu to.

I'd die.

I pull away and step back. At first he was smiling then the smile faded.

"I'm sorry Natsu. I wanted this. I enjoyed it. But memories came rushing my brain. I can't help the memories. I'm sorry." I start crying quietly. "I want to move on. I want to be with you. But I'm scared. I can't lose you to."

I sit on the bed and cry then I feel arms around me.

"It's ok. I know it's hard for you. That's why I didn't want to push you. Don't worry. You won't lose me." Natsu says softly and hugs me close. I grip on to his shirt.

"He said the same thing and he left me. How am I supposed to know you won't do the same thing?" I whimper.

"You'll have to trust me. I'm not your ex. I have no intention of hurting you."

"He didn't either..."

"Stop it!" He snaps and I flinch. I move away from him. He sighs. "I'm sorry. But please stop comparing me to him. I'm not him." 

"I know. Sorry." I whisper and look at the floor. I feel him stand up off the bed. He takes a few steps then turns to face me.

"The spell Lisanna cast or rather had her friends cast. Was to keep me from seeing my true love. That's why I only couldn't see you because it made you invisible to me. When we broke up she didn't recast the spell so it faded. Lisanna found another guy to manipulate so she didn't need me under any spells anymore. That's why you suddenly came into view. She had me under the spell since we started freshman year when me and her got together."

I look at Natsu and I'm speechless. I never believed in that witchcraft stuff but it did make sense. Natsu isn't the same guy as before. I always knew him as heartless because he'd ignore me but now it makes sense.

"Wait. The spell was to keep you from seeing your true love?" I ask and he nods. "And that's me?" He nods again. "But. I. What? I." I stammer and he chuckles at me.

"I had the same reaction but then it all made sense. How we feel around each other. How being near each other just feels right. How you instinctively hold my hand and don't want to let go. And then the kiss. It just felt right. Didn't it?" He says softly I nod my head yes.

"Does it make sense now? Me and you. Why I felt so strongly about helping you. Why hearing you cry that first day hurt me so bad?" He asks and pulls me close to him. I nod and hug him close.

"Yes. It makes sense but. The past still hurts. It haunts me." I take a deep breath. "But I think you can help me move on."

"I'm happy to hear you say that." Natsu coos in my ear.

"Just promise me something." I ask

"Anything." He says while rubbing his face against my head.

"Be patient and understanding with me. This is going to be hard."

"Of course. I know it will be difficult but I'll help you. I promise." Natsu says. I sigh in relief.

"You know what? If I'm giving love a chance again maybe I should give friendship a chance again to."

"That's up to you. If you want I can talk to them." Natsu offers.

"Yeah. Tell them to take it one step at a time. Like me and you are."

"Ok. I will." He says. "Is it to early to ask you to be my girlfriend?" He asks hesitantly

"No it's not. Yes I'll be your girlfriend." I reply with a smile. I look up at him to see a big smile on his face. He leans down and kisses me. I can just feel his emotions. Happiness and excitement as well as content and relaxation. He was tense all this time and now he's calm.

"I knew it!" I hear my grandma yell and my door slam open causing us both to jump out of our skins. "You can't lie to me! I knew you two were together!" She bellows

"Geez grandma you scared me half to death! And for your information we JUST got together. Like a minute ago!" I yell

"Whatever! I still called it! No hanky panky either!" She yells and walks off leaving the door open. I stand there with my face bright red and Natsu is looking at me with a shocked and confused expression on his face.

"Hanky panky?" He asks and I blush red. My grandma is old fashioned and uses old terms.

"She. Uhhh. She means. No sex." I say and blush so much my ears burn. Natsu's face now matches the color of his hair and he mumbles "O-Oh"

"Come on. I'll walk you outside. We both can use the air and you should get home before people start to worry." I tell Natsu and he nods and gathers his stuff.

I walk him outside and my grandma says "don't go giving the neighbors a show!" As we walk by.

I just shake my head and ignore her. She loves to get under my skin.

We notice when we get outside that it's dark.
"I hope you don't get in trouble." I tell Natsu.

"Nah. I'm a big boy. They know I can handle myself." He says with a smile.

"No doubt about that." I tease and squeeze his biceps and he flexes which causes me to giggle.

"Let me know when you get home. Ok?"

"I will. I'll see you tomorrow. Hey how about I start walking you to school as well?" He asks with a smile

"I don't want to be a bother." I say shyly

"Your not. What time do you usually leave?"

"About 7:30"

"Ok I'll be here then."

"You sure?"

"Yes I'm sure."

"Alright then. I'll see you then. Now go on home!" I tease and push him. He pouts.

"Your pushing me away now?" He sticks out his lower lip and pouts like a baby

"Yes. You need to go home. I don't want you in trouble."

"Fine. But first." He turns and wraps me in his arms and kisses me passionately. He lets me go and runs off "Cya tomorrow!" He calls

I stood there and watched him leave then shook my head.

Damn it Natsu. Your my new weakness. My new drug.

You better not hurt me.

I know you won't.

Right?

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