(ARABELLA'S POINT OF VIEW)
''You want anything at all call me ok.'' Justin said I frowned at him his lip curled up and he sat on the side of the bed beside me
''Only 32 more days Pigeon, hopefully the baby will hang onto then but for now you're on bed rest and I am taking it very seriously, so no pouting or giving me cute faces, I won't fall for them this time.'' I muttered curse words under my breath and looked at the telly he chuckled and kissed the vein on my neck.
''I fancy food.'' I said he smiled.
''What do you want?'' I licked my lips.
''Chocolate sundae with some bacon bits on top.'' he pulled the most disgusted face ever.
''What?''
''Seriously, what are you an animal?'' he asked I glared at him.
''You know what I lost my appetite bye.'' I said he sighed.
''Baby I was onl-''
''Good bye Justin.'' I said in a dark tone he groaned and left the room closing the door after him and I threw a pen at the door hearing him chuckling from outside. I laid into the big fancy pillows letting out a deep breath rubbing my belly.
I was discharged from the hospital Yesterday evening and was put on bed rest until my due date that is in 32 days, and already it was driving mad, like I don't mind lying in bed all day, but I have a one year old I just want to play with, and I hate Justin waiting hand on foot for me.
I flicked through the station annoyed that nothing was on. I switched the telly off and looked up at the ceiling. And being a mom, not just being a mom but being a female the wheels in my head started turning thinking of things that I need to buy for the house for the baby, I let out a deep breath and heard knocked on the door. I looked over at the door and it opened and Justin stood his hand in with an ice cream cup I couldn't help but chuckled, he popped his head around the door.
''Is it safe to come in?'' I nodded he picked the pen up and sat on the bed, I looked at what he brought seeing a chocolate sundae and bacon bits.
''Thank you.'' he smiled and nodded; I put a spoon full into my mouth and moaned.
''Got Salt on you.'' he pulled a disgusted face but quickly wiped it off and gave me a small smile shaking his head.
''I'll go down and get you some.''
''No it's ok I'll survive, stay.'' I moved over and he laid beside me turning on his side and rubbed my belly.
''My mom has Josh.'' I sighed.
''I hate this, I can't even be a mother to him.''
''Because you have to keep his little brother or sister in your belly for another while.'' he said I nodded putting more ice cream into my mouth so I wouldn't cry he quietly awed, I looked down at him raising my eyebrows.
''You're so cute.'' I smiled and tapped his cheek before looking back at the telly.
''So we've everything for the baby?'' he asked I nodded and looked at him.
''Yeah we do, now it's just the baby we're waiting for.'' he nodded still rubbing my belly.
''Listen Pidge how many kids do you want?'' he asked I shrugged.
''Did I ever tell you that I never wanted a big family, hell I didn't even want kids.'' he frowned.
''What you didn't?'' I nodded.
''I never believed in living a fairy tale until we got married.'' he still was frowning.
''When we dated first and you proposed something deep in me was telling me it wouldn't last so I just lived in the moment, but when we got married then we were pregnant in 6 weeks and we got this house, I started to dream big, and look towards the future, so maybe 4-6 kids.'' I said playing with his fingers
''Why?'' I asked he shook his head.
''Just curious that's all.'' I nodded '' I'd like a lot of kids you know so they'll always have someone to keep them safe if we can't.'' he said I nodded and kissed his cheek.
''But I don't want any more for another 2 years.'' he chuckled and nodded.
''I'm going to go on the bar after 8 weeks for 2 years then we'll think of more after that, but I want to have all our kids by the time I'm 36 so we've 12 years to do.'' he chuckled.
''Perfect, so you never told me what you hope to have.''
''I think it's a boy, but I don't care once the baby is healthy.''
''Agreed.'' I smiled sitting up and yawned.
''Hungry?'' I asked him he looked at his watch.
''It's nearing 6, I don't want to cook so how does a Chinese sound?'' he asked I moaned he laughed kissing me before getting up and walked over to his side of the bed where the house phone was.
''You know bed rest means taking it easy not actually sit in bed.'' I said as he hung the phone up.
''In my book it does.'' I cursed under my breath.
''Pigeon if you want the baby to survive it has to be done alright.'' I looked at him.
''Relax I was just saying.'' I mumbled he sighed.
''I'm sorry baby, I hate how this has turned out, I don't like you sitting in bed all day and knowing our baby's life could be at risk I just want you both to be perfectly comfortable and safe.'' I pouted my lip.
''We are don't worry I'll let you know when I feel discomfort.''
***
It's been 20 days since I was put on bed rest and I only had 12 days left until my due date. Justin is a complete sweetheart, he will get me anything I need it's sweet and all but I hate him doting over me and having the baby and work it's just all getting to me know.
I know I have to stay off my feet in case it causes myself to go into labour but I know I won't because it was all down to stress over the big fight with my brothers and my dad but I am clam and collective the baby is moving as much as it can with little space.
Giving I was alone today, Justin went to work at 9 and I had the Josh till 3 then my brother Eric came over wanting to take him out which I didn't mind because it gave me an excuse to get out of the bed.
When they left I had a nice long relaxing shower, done my hair moisturised and got myself dressed and went down stairs, took a big tub of Ben and Jerry from the freezer and I sat in the living room kicking my feet up on the sofa.
From: Babe
I'm home at 9 tonight, short of staff
To: Babe
No problem, no need to rush chilling with the other men in my life
From: Babe
Your brothers?
To: Babe
Nope, Ben and Jerry
From: Babe
Ha you idiot, I was thinking I may have to home kick some ass your my women ;)
To: Babe
You got nothing to worry there my love, get back to work, I love you.
I spent the evening chilling out then Eric came back with Josh at 5, I made him dinner then I bathed him and sat him in front of the telly but on cartoons, then at 7pm I decided to make a home-made chicken curry, suddenly craving it.
''Why the hell are you out of bed and dressed?'' I jumped and turned around.
''Damn it you scared me.'' I said to Justin and turned back to the food.
''Pigeon answer me.''
''Even when we are 60 are you still going to call me pigeon or by my real name?'' I asked him and picking up a piece of chicken up and held it out to him, he walked over and I put it into his mouth he hummed nodding .
''I'll still call you pigeon, it feel's weird calling you Bella or Arabella, even if someone mentioned your name it just doesn't feel right.'' I chuckled and steered the curry putting cut up onions in it and steered the prawns in the other pot.
''Why are you out of bed?'' he asked leaning against the counter crossing his arms.
''I feel good the baby is kicking a lot today ever since I started walking around, so I came down here.''
''Why are you dressed?'' he nodded to my clothes.
''To make myself feel good I guess.'' I shrugged putting everything in with the chicken curry and mixed it up.
''You look beautiful.'' he said I smiled and him and picked up a plate putting food on both of them.
''Where's Josh?''
''Inside, I fed and bathed him not to long ago.'' he nodded and went into the living room. I put the plates on the table and I took a beer from the fridge and took the cap off it, buttered bread and I put it down as he walked in.
''He's dozing off, I lowered his pram and he snuggled with his blanket.'' he said I nodded pouring myself some apple juice.
''Eric came over and took him for a couple of hours earlier, he had him out with Isabella and the twins, he said he had his heart in his mouth when he was walking.'' I sat down Justin chuckled.
''Man can you believe he is one and walking already.'' he said shaking his head amazed I smiled.
''It flew in because we had so much happen in the past year with the wedding the house and him, now with this one coming along with won't have it so easy, he is going to get very jealous''
''Of you/'' he pointed his fork at me'' he doesn't even like Isabella a near you and he cries and gets angry, he's going to have to snap out of that.'' I frowned.
''Justin he is only a baby and a mommy's boy leave him alone he'll get used to it, he doesn't understand what going on when the baby comes he'll learn.''
''I'm not giving out about him Pidge I'm just saying, he's going to have to snap out of it.'' I nodded changing the subject.
''How was work?''
''Long, 3 trainers out with the flu so I had to stand in for a women's fitness class.'' he rolled his eyes I smiled.
''See anyone you like?''
''None of them where my type.''
''They weren't.'' he shook his head putting a fork full of food into his mouth.
''Nope, sure they were good looking but they're not you.'' he shrugged I smiled and looked at my plate.
''God I love making you blush.'' I chuckled chewing on my food.
''I wasted all my time trying to get fit again.'' he chuckled.
''Sorry about that.'' I chuckled. ''Least you will be on birth control so you can get back to your weight in no time.'' he added.
''I was never bothered about my weight, I only lost it for you.'' he frowned putting a napkin on his cleared plated.
''For me.'' he eyebrows where almost touching.
I cleared my throat'' I needed to look good in case you lost interest.'' I said picking my glass up. He frowned and looked at his plate and stood up putting it in the sink.
''I'm going to put him up and have a shower, thanks for dinner.'' he said and walked out, I sighed and put my fork down and stood up putting the left overs in the bin and I cleaned the dishes, put them away and I let Daisy in out of the back and left the two boxers out.
''Now.'' I whispered to Josh covering him back up and the bathroom door opened, Justin walked out with a towel around his waist and drying his hair with the other.
''Do you think I only got with you for your good looks and body?'' he asked me.
''No of course not.''
''Then why the fuck would you think I'd lose interest if you were big, I fucking love you for you Pigeon big skinny its all the same to me.'' he hissed I sighed sitting on the sofa and shrugged.
''Shrugging isn't an answer Pigeon.''
''I didn't feel sexy, and if I wasn't feeling it you wouldn't be either so I had to look good.'' he shook his head and picked his clothes up and left the bedroom closing the door after him I groaned throwing my head back then got up and followed him down stairs.
''Why are you mad at me?'' I asked watching him put his gym clothes in the washing machine.
''Go away Bella.'' he said dryly
''Not until you tell me why you are mad at me.'' he turned to me so fast and pinned me to the wall before I blinked. His arms where on either side of my face and his jaw was clenched tight as his eyes bored into mine.
''Because it's hurts me to think you need to be skinny and sexy for me, that you don't see I love and adore you anyway you are for every flaw you have I love it.'' he said and moved back and left me, I let out the breath I didn't realized I was holding in.
I think I stood there for 5 minutes hearing him moving around the down stairs floor. I pushed myself away from the wall and I turned the washing machine on and went into the kitchen, he was sitting on the island looking at the floor.
''It wasn't just about you, I just liked the body I had before.''
''You said in case I lost interest Pigeon don't try change what you said.'' he shot I sat down at the kitchen table my hands on my lap.
''I saw... I see how girls look at you when you walk by them.'' I mumbled ''I know you love me, I've never doubted your love for me, and I never will, it's just.'' I sighed
''I'm a girl and you're a good looking man, I didn't what to look bad beside you.'' I shrugged and looked away from my lap to the ground for a minute then looked up to him, he was looking at me with an unreadable expression.
''I'm going to bed, it's been a long day.'' really like now I thought.
''Ok night.'' I nodded he jumped down I looked out the back door at the pool; he walked over and kissed my cheek and went upstairs. Daisy got out of her bed and walked over; I smiled and picked her up sitting her on my lap sitting in the dime light with everything running through my head.
I was brought out of my thoughts when Justin came back into the kitchen in his boxers looking at me confused and concerned
''Why are you still down here?'' I shrugged.
''Not tired.'' I said.
''Pigeon it's after midnight and you're in the same spot I left you 2 hours ago, come to bed you'll have a bad back if you sit like that all night.'' he said I nodded and put Daisy down she laid on the cold tiles, I locked the back door he motioned for me to go first and I did.
''Wait Josh's Juice bottle from the fridge.''
''You go I'll get it.'' he said I nodded and I returned my journey to the stairs, I got to the top of the landing and looked through the gaps of the banisters he was walking to the stairs, he looked at me, I broke eye contact and walked down the hallway to our room and went into the closet, I took my shoes off and my clothes and sat in my underwear with my Pj's in my hand.
I heard him walking in but I didn't move. ''What are you thinking about? '' he asked from behind me.
''My mom.'' I said he let out a sigh and massaged my shoulders, I let my head drop for about 30 seconds then I put my left hand on his right hand that was on my right shoulder and I kissed the back of it.
''I'm really sorry.'' I said he wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed the top of my head.
''Don't worry about it babe, just don't rush yourself ok if you don't want to go the gym then don't ok, I'm going to love and adore you either way.'' I nodded; I was going back the gym but wasn't getting into it tonight.
''Put your Pj's on and come to bed.'' I nodded standing up and put my bottoms on he rubbed my belly.
''Getting big huh.'' he said I nodded.
''Yeah much bigger than Josh I can't see my feet at all, least I could with him.'' he smiled and I slipped my top on and took my bra off and went into the bedroom, he got under the covers, I set the alarm and closed the bedroom door, the alarm beep informing us that all windows and doors where locks and the alarm was activated.
''Are you ok?'' he asked I nodded getting under the blanket and moved over to him, he rubbed my jaw line and kissed me straight away.
''Pigeon you ever and I mean ever want to talk about your mom talk to me ok.'' he said I nodded.
''I'm just sad she's not here to see her grandchildren.''
''She's always there, not in flesh but she's always with them she'll know everything that's going on'' I nodded resting my head on his chest and closed my eyes only to wake up feeling wetness between my legs, I sat up seeing the bed empty and Josh's crib empty, I rubbed my eyes and felt something on my head, I pulled it off flipping it around seeing a post note and read it on the way downstairs.
You finally had a full night's sleep and I didn't want to wake you, my mom's parents flew in last night and my mom asked to have Josh for the day and I'll get him when I come home from work at 6, ring me when you wake up, love you millions
X
I looked at the clock and I gasped feeling a sudden shooting pain in my belly. I reached for my phone as I got to my feet.
''Morning sleeping beauty, it's after noon you only up.'' I hummed and groaned biting my lip hard.
''Pigeon, Pidge what's wrong.'' I gasped for breath and I reached down feeling blood and cried.
''Justin my waters broke and the baby is crowning.'' I said then I screamed in pain holding myself up against the wall.
''Oh my god.'' I panted for breath I heard shouting and I picked my phone up.
''Pigeon, Bella fucking answer me!'' He yelled
''I'm ok.'' I breathed hard ''Listen you drive safe you hear me and ring an ambulance and my mid wife on the way, I'm going to have this baby here.''
''I'm on my way just breath ok baby nice big breaths I'll be there before you know it.''
''Ok.'' I dropped the phone and cried in pain sliding down the living wall in that much pain I ripped my underwear off me, I felt my baby's head, I got a really bad pain, a pain that I pushed with.
''AHHHHHHHHH!'' I screamed my hands turning into fists.
''Pigeon!'' I heard Justin shouted I cried out his name and heard many set of footsteps
''Justin it hurts so much.'' I cried, this was by far the worse pain I ever felt, he ran to my side panic written across his face, his eyes glossy. He bent down in between my legs spreading them apart.
''Ok looks like we're doing it alone ok, deep breaths good girl... Jinx gets me towels sheets and blankets and baby bag and labour bag in our bedroom at the foot of the bed.'' he ordered I tried to focus on Jinx moving around and fight the contractions but I couldn't.
''Ok baby'' Justin got to his knees'' Right Pigeon the baby's head is almost out I need you to push really hard ok baby.'' I done as I was told as the next contraction took over my body I heard more running footsteps I looked up to see my midwife who was there when I had Josh and paramedic's.
''You're doing so well darling.'' She kneeled down beside Justin and held my hand.
''Ok and another one.''
''10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and breath.'' I let out a breath suck another in.
''One more big one Baby you can do it.'' I felt the bigger contractions and with everything in my I squeezed my muscle's and I felt the baby spill from me and a loud cry filled the room.
''A girl, we've a girl.'' Justin said with the baby in his hands tears in his eyes, a towel was put across my chest and he put the baby in it I covered her up and I cried wiping her face cleaned and I kissed her head.
''Hello baby girl.'' I whispered closing my eyes.
A girl, I never expected a girl
''Ok daddy we need you to cut the connection.'' the Midwife said handing Justin a scissor's his hand were shaking as he cut the cord.
The midwife took over cleaned out my after birth.
''Ok we need to get use to hospital Arabella.'' she said I nodded ok and Justin handed the baby to the midwife and he and the female paramedic helped me to my feet, Justin left the room two second later came back with a After birth Pas and underwear and pants, I put them all on along with slippers.
''The floor.''
''Don't worry about it, I'll clean it later, come on she's needs to be weighted.''
***
''You know what's crazy.'' I said to Justin as he sat on the chair and fed the baby he looked at me.
''What?'' he smiled.
''I was the second born, a girl and I was born at home in the living room just like she was.'' he smiled so big and looked down at her.
''A daughter, I was expecting another boy.'' he shook his head.
''You delivered her, how did that feel?'' I asked him.
''First thing I thought was how tight you are and pushing a baby out.'' I laughed rolling my eyes.
''Typical.'' he chuckled.
''But seeing the baby crowning, I didn't even care about the blood, that was the most beautiful experience of my life, don't get me wrong I never felt so happy in my life until Josh came but this morning being the one to see her coming out of you.'' I saw his eyes gloss over I smiled and looked at our little girl who was finished her bottle.
''I was expecting her to be a lot bigger than 6.10.'' he said winding her I nodded.
''Yeah lot of water.'' I said he kissed her forehead and gave her to me, I smiled taking my little lady from her daddy and I wrapped her back into her blanket.
''So what are we going to call her Annabelle or Carly?'' he asked me I looked down at her biting the inside of my lip.
''Kenzie she looks like a Kenzie.'' I said and looked at him his eyebrows were raised.
''Where did you get that from?''
''I don't know I had a dream the other night I was holding a baby and it name was Kenzie, it was our baby because I was in a hospital bed, and it's cute Kenzie Bieber.'' I said he smiled and sat on the bed side us his arm around my back his chin on my shoulder.
''Kenzie Bieber is perfect, just like her.''
