((ARABELLA'S POINT OF VIEW))
''Make sure you put her out the back.'' Mia ran in front of me holding Skye by her lead. She pushed the door opened dropping the lead letting the dog run in, she ran back out her eyes wide I frowned.
''What's wrong?'' I got closer hearing the shouting.
''Mommy.'' she ran over to me I picked her up and walked into the house.
''Admit it you care about the lot of them but me you never ever talk to me when was the last time you ask me what was going!'' Jason yelled.
''Go inside baby.'' Mia went into the living room.
''What's going on?'' I asked neither of them look away from each other.
''He thinks I don't love him.'' Justin crossed his arm Jason glared his dad down.
''When was the last time you talked to me other than telling me to give something to Jasper, when was the last time you hung out with me asked me how's school was, how are my grades if I applied for college.'' he was getting so angry I saw the tears in his eyes.
''How can I ask you things Jason you're never fucking in!'' Justin yelled back I looked at Kenzie Annabella and Travis who were at the top of the staircase.
''I'm so sick of not being seen in your eyes.'' he shook his head and walked to the front door and slammed it after him.
''You can't say anything to him without him fucking snapping all time.'' he snapped.
''What did you say to him?'' I narrowed my eyes he done the same to me.
''What makes you think I said something to him?''
''He is the only one of our kids who is always laughing he is never in a bad mood so what the fuck did you say to him Justin.''
''I just asked him was he dating anyone since he's always hanging out with girls, he just snapped saying a load of crap that I wouldn't care and only now I've asked him I expect him to have a nice girlfriend to bring home.'' I frowned and looked at Annabelle who was frowning at her dad.
''Has it ever occurred to you daddy why he doesn't talk about girls and why he gets along better with girls rather than boys?'' she asked I frowned.
''Anna what do you me-.'' I gasped my jaw dropped.
''Is he?'' she shrugged.
''Anytime I ask he ignores the question.'' I picked my keys up.
''I'll be back in a while I'll go find him.'' I closed the door after me and I got into my car. He didn't take his car so I just drove around the neighbourhood when I spotted him sitting on a bench on the park. I parked my car on the curb and got out and walked over and sat beside him, he sighed looking down at his hands.
''You know you can talk to me about anything in the entire world right.'' he nodded.
''Look Jason your dad doesn't love one more than the other.'' he scoffed.
''I know he spends a lot of his time with Jasper only because of what happened it hit us how close we were to burying him, but that doesn't mean he isn't there for you, because if you needed him he'd drop everything in a heartbeat and be there for you.''
''Come on mom be logic me and dad have never gotten on.'' I sighed.
''And why is that, I've never seen you go to him for things it's always been your grandpa, I see your dad ask you things and you do be to focus on your phone to pay attention, he wanted you kids to have a good 18 so he's been planning for use to go to Marbella to the villa for a week and you declined and said you wanted to hang out with grandpa and the lodge in the country side, do you have anything idea how gutting that can be for a parent you child never wanting or needing you?'' he frowned.
''So you can't throw it all on your dad when you're not the one making moves.'' he sighed.
''You need to talk to your dad honey because it'll come back and bit you in the ass when you have your own kid.' he nodded his shoulders slumping.
''Come on it's going to rain.'' we got up and headed back to the car and headed home.
''I miss the warm weather.'' I shivered closing the door.
''I'm going to go put the heat on.'' he nodded going into the living room and I went into the laundry room turning the heat on.
''Is he home?'' I jumped a mile high turning around
''Jesus Christ Justin why the hell are you in here?'' I looked down he was sitting on the ground leaning against the wall
''It's quiet in here.'' he mumbled. I leaned against the washing machine.
''Now I know why you come in here to escape, it's actually quiet peaceful... plus it smells nice.'' I smiled crossing my arms over my chest.
''I've spoken to Jason.'' he looked up at me.
''I think you guys need to have a chat alone no-one butting in.'' he rubbed the back of his neck.
''It's hard to talk to someone who doesn't want to talk to you.'' he mumbled I bent down.
''You talked to me remember all those years ago I hated you and you build up the courage and talked to me.'' he hummed'' it's not going to be as hard talking to your son, he knows you guys need to talk and agrees so take him out go for Eddie rockets or something I'll hold the fort here.'' he sighed I smiled slightly.
''These things happen babe, life isn't easy especially when you've got 11 kids.'' he pulled me in by the face and kissed me.
''It's mad how in love I am with you.'' he said I blushed.
''I'm glad I can still turn your eye.'' he chuckled and I kissed him again.
''I love you so much.'' I said he smiled tucking my hair behind my ear and there was a knock on the door, I pulled it opened and looked up at Jason he rubbed the back of his neck and looked at Justin.
''Fancy going for food dad?'' he asked.
''Sure son let me grab my keys.'' I stood up and Justin got up his eyes nervous.
''Good luck.'' he kissed me before walking out.
I folded the clothes and made a cup of tea before going into the living room.
''What are we watching?'' I asked.
''Men in black 3.'' I nodded putting my feet up leaning back against the cushions.
''Are we ordering out tonight?'' I chuckled.
''No, I told you that's only a one night a week thing and we done it the other night, I'm making a chicken curry tonight.'' Ethan sighed but nodded.
''Where's dad gone?'' Travis asked coming in.
''Out with Jason why?''
''He washed my basketball shorts the other day I can't find them.''
''There's in the laundry room in the blue basket take them out neatly!'' I called after he walked out.
The evening went by dinner was done the kids had their homework done showered for school. Justin texted saying he and Jason were heading to watch the LA clippers game so when the kids all headed to their room I had a nice long soak just enjoying the peace and quiet.
''Pigeon?'' he knocked on the door.
''Yeah!'' I called out in a tired voice the door opened and I opened my eyes he smiled and closed the door.
''How'd it go?'' I asked watching him strip down naked.
''Yes it was good we had a man to man talk.'' he got in the shower I raised my eyebrows.
''Just basic explaining to him I love him just as much as I love the others and we talked about school basketball girls.''
''Girls?'' he chuckled turning the shower off then got in the bath rubbing my feet.
''You know how Anna said about how he gets along better with girls?'' I nodded.
''Well he's not gay by the way he's eyes were on the cheerleaders all night no way, he's just very shy around girls, there was a girl about 18 sitting beside us real pretty red head he just froze.'' I awed behind the suds.
''The girls he hangs out with are girls he's known since kindergarten and he gets along with them better but he has tones of guy friends he's just shy around other girls.''
''Did he ask if you thought he was gay?'' he nodded.
''He was pretty cool about it because he never talked about girls he likes or girls in general around us, but he did tonight, it was pretty casual and cool like everything in the past didn't matter.'' I smiled
''It's hard huh having eleven of them.'' he said I nodded with a chuckle.
''Yeah it is but I wouldn't change any of them.'' he smiled leaning forward grabbing my arms he nodded his head back I chuckled and let him pull me onto his lap.
''You're.'' he kissed my collar bone.'' So gorgeous.'' I smiled leaning my head back and he kissed up my throat.
''We're alone.'' he mumbled.
''No interruptions, no excuses just me and my very sexy wife.'' he ran his hand down my back.
''Bath sex.'' I mumbled.'' That's been a while.'' I said he held me my waist with one hand and the other hand was rubbing me I moaned my head falling back he sucked my nipple.
''Mommy.'' I heard a knock on the door and cried in frustration.
''She has to stop this crying thing at night.'' Justin said in anger I got off him and grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me opening the door.
''What's wrong pumpkin?'' I closed the door bending down.
''My tooth fell out.'' she held it up I gasped.
''It did whoa you know what you have to do?'' I asked.
''Put it under my pillow.'' she said I stood up holding my hand out, she took it and I brought her back down to her room.
''Put it under your pillow ok and go to sleep otherwise the tooth fairy won't come ok.'' she nodded getting into bed.
''Sweet dreams baby girl.'' I kissed her head pulling the covers up to her shoulders.
''Night mommy.'' I smiled closing her door and walked down to the bedroom Justin walked out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist.
''Her tooth fell out.'' he smiled a little.
''So that'll be a first of Mia.'' he said I nodded.
''We'll have to get a little jar for her one since we've all the other's first tooth that fell out.'' he nodded I sighed.
''Babe I'm sorry.'' he shrugged.
''You can't help it, I'm going to get a drink.'' he walked out, I sighed drying my body and put a top on and followed him downstairs he sat at the island with a glass of whiskey I wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed his cheek.
''Let me make it up to you.'' I said.
''It's cool babe.'' I turned him around in the stool.
''You're not the only one with needs Mr Bieber.'' I rubbed his thigh close to his crotch and kissed his jawline.
''I think this time.'' I wrapped my arms around his neck his went to me bum and he moved the top up his hands cupping my bum cheeks and he groaned.
''I should take care of my husband don't you think?''
***
''Shhh.'' I whispered laughing covering his mouth he wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me to him.
''Justin.'' I giggled loudly covering my mouth this time he laughed kissing my neck.
''That was the best sex we had in a long time.'' I laughed.
''I've washing powered in my hair.'' he laughed.
''it was your idea to have sex in the laundry room.'' he said.
''Either that or you would have had me on the kitchen island where our kids will eat tomorrow morning.'' he laughed turning the shower on and pulled my top over my head.
''Got money?'' I asked.
''For what?''
''Mia.'' he nodded.
''My wallet is on the locker.'' I pulled my shorts up and walked out to the room towel drying my hair and grabbed $3 and went into her room she was in a deep sleep, I slipped my hand under her pillow grabbing the tooth and I put the money under her pillow and closed the door after me.
''It's so tiny.'' I held it up he chuckled and I went into the wardrobe pulling the shoe box down, inside it with had small jars for the kids teeth and little see through packages with locks of hair from their first haircut, those where very important times I had to keep something for a memory so on each there's a name so we won't get mixed up.
''Before we know it she'll have all her adult teeth.'' I said sadly he kissed my neck.
''We can't stop them from growing baby.'' I nodded grabbing the hair brush and French braided my hair from top to bottom, to tried to dry it
''I still don't feel satisfied'' I teased he laughed lying me back on the bed covering my mouth with his.
***
''Mom can I ask you a question?'' Justin heard Sophie asked her mom.
''Sure.'' he picked the cups up and went into the kitchen putting the kettle back on.
''You don't have to tell me this but, when you and dad got married and after a few years, did you ever like want to just leave him.'' he frowned stopping in his tracks.
''Why do you want to know?''
''Just wondering.'' he sensed Sophie shrugging.
''Honestly.'' his daughter hummed.
''Never ever have I wanted someone other than your dad. We fought we argued but that happens in every healthy relationship. Things haven't been easy but your dad is the love of my life, my soul mate, you only get one of those, I'd give him up.'' Justin smiled down at the counter.
''Are you like worried or something about me and your dad after everything that happened?''
''No just one of my friends parents are getting divorced they've been together a long time, I was just wondering if you guys lost your spark.'' he chuckled putting the milk into the tea and went into the living.
''Nah baby that's one thing you don't need to worry about.'' Bella pushed Sophie hair out of her face, she smiled and kissed her mom cheeks before standing up, and kissing her dad's cheek she left the room.
''We do have a healthy relationship right?'' he gave her, her cup of tea and sat beside her.
''Yeah we do, if we never fought never disagreed what would we have a boring life, we fight we make up we move on that's a healthy relationship with a bit of spice.'' he chuckled kissing her shoulder.
