Good Girlz in the Hood : The Chronicles of Ciara

Chapter 25

A few days had passed since the incident with my mother. My BB had been taken into repairs coz I had had a bit of a fit of rage and thrown against a wall, and I was using some old phone of my dads, but it wasn't on. I was not in the mood to talk to anyone. I had even gone to the extent of deactivating my Facebook.

Today I was going with my Byron's (my brother) fiancée, Keira, shopping for wedding/bridesmaids dresses. I didn't even know what part of London we were going to so I dressed inconspicuously in case I saw anyone I knew...

**

After trying on what seemed like hundreds of dresses, Keira decided what one she wanted and what she wanted us bridesmaids to wear.

We went and sat in Café Giardino eating Jacket Potatoes talking about life.

"So... what happened to that boy you were going out with...?" she asked whilst cutting up a potato for Sophie

"pshh... we broke up." I said. I picked up my drink and took a sip.

Shopping is so tiring especially when it's for a special occasion... thank God we finally had the dresses, we just needed to get them properly fitted.

Eventually we finished eating and went home.

My phone was still off and I hadn't spoken to my mum.

**

I was lying on the bed at my dad's house. I was thinking about life - about Kyle & the baby & him telling me he still loved me, Jordaine & the kiss, Tyrone & the kiss...

It was all so stressful KMT. I didn't even like Tyrone in that way; Kyle and I had a bit of history together which I was still trying to get over/forget about; and as for Jordaine, she had me confused with this whole kissing thing - Was I lesbian/bisexual or...? Only God knows!

I was lying there, feeling sorry for myself. Why is my life so depressing? I'm alive and healthy - those are the only two good things in my life, and at the rate I've been eating Morley's lately I won't be either of those anymore...

It seemed like I had no-one left in the world - if my mum was hiding shit like this from me what else was she hiding? My brothers were too busy living their own lives, my dad lived too far away and all my friends had abandoned me or had become bailouts or decided mandem were more important than our friendships... ¬_¬

**

A few days later I decided to go home. My dad dropped me off with a bag full of Easter eggs and leftovers from my gran. Luckily my mum was still in France with my other grandma...

I turned on my phone and retrieved all the messages I had received during my hibernation period.

Rianna had sent me one like ten minutes previously: 'Yo bitch why's your phone off? Anyways call me when u get this I need u 2 do me a favour xx'

I called her back coz I didn't wanna sit in the house alone all evening. She asked me to come follow her to link some mandem

"What happened to Bradley??" I asked. Bradley is/was her boyfriend

"Pshh... fuck him. I'm done with that nigga, and I mean it this time." Rianna said this all the time, but she always got back with him eventually ¬_¬

"Whatever... as long as they know I aint on beating and they better not touch me or I'll castrate them."

She laughed

"Yeah, I already have. Anyways, get ready and meet me at West Norwood station"

"That's a fucking mission man, I'm gonna have to jump like 2/3 buses."

"(Sigh) erm ... well... Meet me at Crystal Palace then - the bus station bit."

"Whatever" I locked off the phone and went up to my bedroom. I got dressed casually, I aint tryna draw any man... I've got enough on my plate. I kept my black jeans and white t-shirt on, but changed into a blue Adidas hoodie.

**

As I strolled off the bus and crossed the road, I began regretting saying 'yes' to Rianna as I spotted her across the road with two boys. They looked like them bait "mi smoke di herb" Jamaicans. They were both blacked out and as I got closer I clocked that luckily the uglier one had his arm around Rianna, which meant I was supposed to jam with the nicer one.

"Davonte, Jamari this is Ciara - one of my best friends." She said, introducing me to them. Devonte was her link, and Jamari was his bredrin.

We walked further down the road, and jumped on the 176 towards Elephant & Castle. When we got to elephant we changed to the 133 to Brixton.

Brixton aka Perverted Yardie Town ... where the hell were these people taking me?? KMT!

We walked into some area of flats. It didn't actually look that bad. We entered a building and Devonte unlocked the door. I looked at Rianna. My girl was wearing a dress and heels so if we needed to run she best be prepared to remove them shoes...

**

We had been jamming with Jamari and Devonte for about an hour and Rianna had left me alone in the room with Jamari to go and "jam" with Devonte.

Jamari and I were just bussing conversation and she came back into the room with a drink for me. I took it but I didn't drink a drop of it - who knows what could be in it, or what diseases there might be within the house. As Rianna was leaving the room she made a signal to me with her eyes, and she was shaking her head. I guessed that she meant 'don't drink it'.

After a while, me and Jamari's conversation died out and we were sitting in silence; him watching TV, me listening to my iPod. All of a sudden I heard bare screaming... like bare loud and stuff... then Davonte came in the room and whispered something to Jamari.

Jamari looked at me, and then they both ran out of the room and out of the house. What the fuck?

I went to find Rianna; I didn't even know what room she was in.

I entered a room opposite the bathroom, and got the shock of my life...

Rianna was lying on the bed and her legs were covered in blood...