First Times

Chapter 16

"Sweetie, I'm so sorry you had to find out like that. I was planing to tell you soon as I could but...", my mother told me.

"But you didn't! you just always think it's going to be okay! but it's not! he will never be my dad! And he will never come back into this house!", I said with anger as I cut her off.

"Sweetie why don't you have a lye down? The medication is kicking in more". It's true. The medication is making me feel worst, but it's the only thing keeping me alive. I never felt this angry before, and never had and will probably be more in the future. I walked up stairs, holding in my tears, and slammed my bed room door. Everything felt quiet. No sound what's so ever. Just me breathing deeply. I began to feel really warm. The. Straight away I ran towards the toilet and began to throw up. Yep, it was defiantly medication kicking in. I sat by the toilet, with sweat dripping down my face, while I was getting my breath back. Then my tummy went funny and then I was throwing up. After when it ended, and slowly fell to the floor, with me crying my heart out. My perfect dress felt like it was destroyed from my sweat. I felt so hot and sticky. I heard foot steps come rushing up the stairs, and through the bathroom. It was my mother. She ran towards me and help my jelly like body up towards my bed.

"Everything will be alright! I promise!", she said holding in her tears. she laded me down on my bed, and began to open all the windows. She went back down stairs, and brought up two bowls, one filled with water and one not. She also brought up cold wet cloth, to bring my tempter down. My mother had to do some course thing so she knows what to do when the side affects kicks in.

1. If I'm hot, lay me on a bed, open up the widows, and get me a wet clod cloth.

2. If I'm sick, be near a toilet and also have a sick bowl near me, with another bowl with water.

3. If I have a upset stomach, I has to be near a toilet, have plenty of fluids, with a will my mother got give.

4. If I have mood swings, she has to say yes to what I say, and let me be alone, and she has to stay calm.

5. If I'm vomiting up blood, or any blood is coming out of me, that's me beginning to go weak.

This it is the first side effects I have had from my new medication. At first I was confused but then I was sick and it made me new it was not me, it was the medication. The medication was taking over my body, and making me into a different person, that's how I felt. My mother watched me slow down my breathing, as she holds my hand, tighter, and tighter.

"Shsh, you will be alright sweetie. Shsh..", my mother kept saying to me to calm me down. My mother continued to hold my hand, until the door bell began to rang.

"I'll be back sweetie! if there's a probably press this beeper. okay?". I got given this beeper, so if there's something wrong and my mother is far, it will help me call her without using my own voice. The she has, a beeper thing on her, and it flashes red. If she doesn't see it, within 30 seconds - 1 minuet, then it will begin to beep. My mother kissed my forehead, and went out of my room to answer the door.

"Hello", he person said at the door. I was able to hear what they were saying through the windows being opened, and through the floor.

"Hello", my mother said back. Then the person said something at the door, that I couldn't hear clearly.

"I'm sorry, she's..." and that's was the only thing I heard. I began to close my eyes, when I heard my mothers foot steps, come up stairs, after closing the front door.

"Who, who was that?", I asked as she sat by my bed.

"Nobody", she said with a smile and placed a kiss on my forehead. And she watched me fell back to sleep.

I woke up to the sound of my phone going off. My mother was no where to be seen, so I answered it.

Phone call:

"Hello?"

"Well hello!", the male voice of Calum spoked.

"Sorry, hi"

"You okay?", Calum said. Does he know about me throwing up, and being unwell.

"Perfectly fine thank you. You?"

"Yeah I'm well. Well I popes in, well I knocked on your front door, and your mother answered it, and she said you weren't well"

"Oh, well I feel better now", I lied.

"Alright cool"

"Cool"

"So yeah"

"Yep....I should probably go now to get some more rest.."

"Yeah, that's totally fine, just you know, wanted to make sure your okay?"

"Thanks", I said, and hugged up the phone. It felt like he wanted to know something else as well. I remember Cameron telling me he was going to Calum's, after when we saw each other at the graveyard, so maybe he told him, and was worried about that.