First Times

Chapter 18

I woke up to my mother laying the table. Since having this new medication, I've just been feel so tired and lazy. But the thing is, they didn't mention it as a side effect, that I could have. I got up slowly, but felt a pounding in my head, that I haven't felt in a long time. As I got up, I lent on the chairs arm rest.

"You all right sweetie?", my mother asked me with cutlery in her hand.

"Yeah, I'm fine!"

"You sure? you don't.."

"Yes!", I said as I cut her off of her sentence. I began to walk to the dinning table and sat right down to show my mother I was fine. I could see she was looking at me in her corner of her eye as she laid the cutlery down. My head was in my heads, and I was looking.

"here, have some water, please", my mother placed down next to me. She doesn't like seeing me this way at all. She try's so hard to help me out, and help me through these horrible times, when I feel like crap. I slowly brought the glass of water to my face, and began to drink it. My mother gave me my dinner, and just from the first bite, I felt like vomiting it up. Why am I feeling like this why? why? from my facial reaction, my mother could tell something was not right.

"What's wrong?", she finally asked me. she looked worried to ask me.

"I don't feel so good, again.."

"Like what?"

"Well I feel..", I said a straight away ran to the toilet, and vomited it up. But it felt weird. It felt like someone was in side my trout and was slicing it open, with also a hot, hot chile in my mouth. I got a tissue from the box's, on the sinks counter, and whipped my mouth. Bright red blood, I saw straight away when I saw it in the corner of my eye. I looked straight in to the toilet, and it was not a pretty sight seeing some of my dinner mixed with blood. I flushed the toilet, and splashed my face with water. It was just a one time thing really, I said to my self.

"Sweetie, are you.. well are you alright?", I heard my mother from the kitchen as I looked in the mirror to make sure there were no signs of bright red liquid on me.

"Yeah just coming!".

I walked into the kitchen and sat down straight away. I began to play with my food as I didn't want to eat any more of it. By the time my mother finished she finally spoke to me:

"You hardly torched your food"

"I'm fine, just not hungry"

"Well you got to eat something"

"I did! and I don't feel hungry"

"Sweetie, please! I don't want to see you in pain!"

"....May I go", I said and she nodded and I rushed up stairs. Something did not feel right in side me. I looked on to my phone and saw 9 miss calls from Calum. I just want to be alone, and this day to be gone, and ended!