Beautiful Illusions (Chris Motionless)

Lost Time, New Memories

Victoria’s p.o.v

“By your heartstrings I am hanging from a dream

Gently swinging in the warm autumn breeze

Come look at the scars

Smother a heart, opening up

Look at the scars

Smother a heart, opening up no more

Tip toeing a strand of your hair suspended between

These thoughts and actions mile above reality…”

It was okay to be nervous right? I’m not blowing the whole thing out of proportion because this was the perfect situation to be shaky and have a knot in my stomach.

It’s okay, I just need to breathe slowly and control my hands from shaking because they seem to be made out of gelatin right now.

The music playing from my bedroom echoed into the bathroom. The lyrics spoke to me as I looked at myself in the mirror before breathing out.

Chris called me not too long ago and told me that we could meet up at Seb’s Café. He said that it was close to my house so that’s why he chose that place.

We were supposed to be there in an hour or so, giving me enough time to freak out as I get ready.

But to be fair I have been nervous since last night. He was the only thought in my head. He was all I could think about, it was kind of strange.

I would normally deny myself the fact of thinking about him but that was all I have been doing. It was kind of scary knowing that I was going to talk to him.

It was like meeting a whole new person again. I know he’s changed just like he knows I’ve changed some aspects in my life and in myself.

I looked at myself in the mirror and studied what I was wearing.

Was it too much? Was it not enough? Did I look dead? Was I wearing enough makeup? Are my eyebrows okay? Are my clothes presentable? Am I asking way too many questions? 

Yes I am, but that’s not the point.

I’m freaking out here. Not being able to look in the mirror any longer, I walked out of my bathroom and flickered off the lights and turned off the music in my room.

I grabbed my phone and bag and headed out but I walked back into my room when I forgot my black overcoat. I threw it on my body was I walked to the kitchen to get my car keys. 

Once they are in my hand, I unlocked my phone to text Chris.

 Me: I’m on my way.

Then I shoved my phone into my bag and walked out to my kitchen until I reached the front door. After locking the door, I hurried to my car and turned it on once I was in there.

That’s when I received a message. I fished my phone out of my bag to read it.

Chris: Me too, see you there.

A smile grew on my face, the worry I once felt fled. Excitement kicked and the knot in my stomach turned to butterflies.

I was happy that I was going to see him now, I didn’t know what to expect but that was once of the reasons.

Relishing in old memories we shared, it was all could think about. I remember how happy I would be when I would be around him when we were younger.

He could always brighten my day with his smartass remarks and his personality. Chris always had the talent of making me smile and laugh.

We would always be together. I basically lived in his house. It would be rare that I would be home, because everywhere I was with him felt like home.