I feel alone alot. Sometimes i dont but the feeling completely lingers in the center of my chest most of the time. Its a real nasty feeling. For me it kinda feels like someone stuck a vacuum through a hole in your chest and is just sucking air out. Its terrifying. And no matter how many friends you make and how much i get to trust them...in the end everyone is leading their own lives and you are an asset to them. I know no can completely revolve around me. So then what? No matter how caring my parents are they dont make the feeling go away, sometimes they turn up the setting on the vacuum. Am i just destined to adapt and live on forever pretending to be full when im really never satisfied by my interactions? Fall in love while the vacuum keeps on sucking for the rest of my life till its so crippling that i cant continue anymore? In my 50's, 90's or maybe 20's? To look forward too or fear the future and keep adding baggage to my bag while this black hole in me sucks it in and loops it around till i become absolutely numb in a never ending spiral? I Want to fix it, but i don't think i ever can if its stuck around this long
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Metamorphosis
ŞiirI did not know what this book meant when I first started it, it was an outlet for my feelings as I faced a new world. As I went on I realized what my personal purpose for it is: To form connections with people in this current world where we are all...
