Truths And Dares

The Stadium

-FLASHBACK (Aged 11)-

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I was sick of this the way I was treated at home the endless being blamed for everything, the hitting and broken promises Mum made. When I went to school basicly the same thing happend there bullying for being scaired, for jumping whenever a loud noise was made and for screaming when someone touched me. I think they think I am crazy, I'm not I am just scared.

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I was in class today and this boy dropped his french dictionary it made a crasing noise like Mum does when she knocks something over when she is angry, I jumped out of my skin, everyone laughed at me. The teacher sent me out for attention seeking behavour. Question: How is being scaired attention seeking behavour? It's like so stupid. Maybe I should tell someone, like someone who can help I mean. No one can see my marks and scars she gives me.

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-(Aged 12)-

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I told someone who could help me now I'm just in a care home, no emergency foster placement for this mentaly scared child. Nope none. Just screaming children aroud me making more loud noises.

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I took the blades out of my razor I don't know how I just did after locing myself in the bathroom. I got hold of one of the blades and I put it against my wrist and pushed it down whilst dragging it across I did this over and over again till I blacked out.

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-End of flashback-

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I saw Harry at the foot of my bed.

"Lu are you okay you fainted?" He asked me quietly.

"I don't know" I whispered, I was shaking. I gingerly looked at my wrist, "Just scars no actual cuts. Just scars." I muttered to myself.

"You remembered?" He asked looking scaired himself. I nodded. "Do you want Mum to come home?" I shook my head and started to get off my bed slowly

"I'll just stay with you," I said weakly.

"We have to go to the stadium in about an hour as we have to practice for our show. It will be loud, are you sure?" He said slowly, calmly and quietly "I don't want you to get scaired,"

"I'll be fine, Harry. I'll be with you guys the whole time right?"

"I'll get Mum to get you before the show starts, Just be carefull or stay in the dressingroom when we're on stage okay?" He said.

"I will be with you or near you the whole time I won't die." I said mockingly.

"Fine but stay with me, Liam, Nial, Zayne, Louis or someone you know. Just please, don't go wandering off" He said pleadingly. I nodded and walked to get some shoes on, I sensed eyes on me so I turned and saw everyone else looking at me as if I was some sort of invalid. I glared at them.