The Silent Prince | Jikook |

Chapter 59: The hidden secret

          Jimin laid there, gawking up at Jungkook with such a blank face as he let out huffs of breath. Watching whatever Jungkook signed to Namjoon. He knew Jungkook was mentioning the Chief constantly and was saying how worried he was deep down, yet, Jimin just laid on the ground to wallow in his deep thoughts as the badge was pinned over his chest in memory of Sehiro. He didn't pry his gaze away from Jungkook, reading everything Jungkook signed. He only watched and didn't have the effort to tell Jungkook not to worry about anything now and how he would always protect the young man. However, Jimin just didn't have it in him to speak. Allowing Jungkook to think about anything of his own boyfriend's sanity.

            "Jungkook..." Jimin whispered as the boy signed to Namjoon about giving him a second. 'End the call..' Jimin mouthed his words to Jungkook as the silent prince gazed at the laptop and suddenly shut it off once he noticed Jimin was demanding him to do so. Leaving Namjoon to raise a brow as he held the hermit crab in his hands, gently petting his index finger along it's smooth shell that was slightly rough along the edges.

             Jungkook turned his head to gaze over at the Chief just laying on the ground as he slowly got down on his knees to meet with the older. "Jungkook... I'm not eating anything.." Jimin told his lover and sat up to press his head against the inner wall of the desk. "I can't eat when I'm hurt.."

'You have to eat, or else, you'd faint or get sick. Please eat something. I know he was a very close friend, but he would have wanted you to at least eat something.' Jungkook signed so desperately to help Jimin eat something.  Jungkook then sat next to Jimin and held his coffee up to offer Jimin at least some coffee. 'Please drink.' Jungkook signed again as Jimin watched the worry linger on within the boy's eyes.

              Jimin accepted the cup of coffee and gazed back up at Jungkook. "You must be tired of telling me to drink and eat when I need to..." Jimin added with a low tone to his voice. Weighing into a whisper.

'I'm only trying to be here for you, I love you. I can't let you suffer through this. Someday, you'll need to understand that life goes on whether you like it or not. Cry today, cry tomorrow... But no amount of tears could make the clock reverse. No matter how hard I tried, it takes forever to move on.' Jungkook signed as Jimin teared up a little to himself as he read Jungkook's signs out. "I would always be by your side... Take your time and breathe, the world will keep moving and won't ever stop. I hope you understand... When I say I want you to eat. I mean it. You need to move on in order to keep going on in life. You cry, you slow down. You move on, you catch up. But I know it's too tough to say goodbye." Jimin read Jungkook's signs as the man nodded his head and pressed his head against Jungkook's shoulder as his hands were still fixed over the cup.

                 "I-I think I might lose myself..." Jimin sobbed as Jungkook began to think of what Jimin meant by that. "I'm losing every piece of my sanity... I think I'm more afraid of losing myself and you in the process... P-Please for whatever I do... Please leave me and think back on our lovely moments.." Jimin continued until Jungkook caressed Jimin's hair back and looked at him. Not wanting to think of such a scary thing.

'Jimin, who's ever going to love me the way you do? Jimin, you love me for me, however, I think I get scared of you for the fact that you want me to stay under your wing.' Jungkook confessed how worried he has become over Jimin by the thought of the Chief taking the 'protecting' word a bit too far. 'I don't think keeping me from going out or having me stay indoors every single day is healthy for the both of us... You're scaring me, Jimin.' Jungkook signed and cupped Jimin's face. Having him where he always wanted to hold him close by. 'I don't want to be afraid of the man I love.' Jungkook signed again, pulling his hands away just to gesture the sign.