BOUNDARIES

Chapter 20

He opened the door and cursed below his breath as he saw the silhouette he knew all too well with her back turned to him

It was Holland !

She turned to acknowledge him now that the door was opened and a look of confusion and surprise riddled his face.

Its been a while since he even spoke to her and with the betrayal and issues with her man not to mention him retreating to his shell, the distance intensified.

We need to talk she finally spoke as she pushed pass him and into the house

"Are your parents home" She questioned as she took in her surroundings, it was the first she had been in the Hale household.

"No, everyone's out for dinner" he sent back as he confusedly scratched his head

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"Ummmmm, what exactly do you want to talk about he asked" breaking the small moment of silence that had started to grow

"Well...... first of all, You. You've changed completely, especially after Demitri and I started going out that's when I first saw it but now you're completely unrecognizable"

"I miss that sweet boy who helped the total stranger pick up her books when everyone else would've walked by me and prolly just step over the books. The one who the weirdest friend I could've had and it was that weirdness that made my early days at N.B.M.H better.... What Happened Jay?" she questioned.

She was the now the one with a confused look on her face, but with careful observation Jay realized that it was mixed with genuine concern and the concern held the greater end

"I'm sure you know why I changed" he said as he laughed mockingly, more to himself than to her

She was still lost and shook her head in response

"Wait here" he commanded as he went upstairs.

He went and retrieved a small blue covered book from a shoebox inside his closet and made his way back down to find Holland sitting and staring at him expectantly.

"Just read" he told her, still unsure why he was even about to open up to her in such a manner as he has never done before.

She flipped through the pages as she completed each daily entry, a different emotion consuming her face accompanied by a change in posture followed as she began to understand the reason behind his change.... Well at least the part he wanted her to know at the moment......

30 minutes later, after many 5 second glances up at him with the revelation of something new, she had reached the final entry and this was the one that screamed HELP! the most:

~~~ I'm guessing that ruin is truly the road to transformation

Be careful, you are no longer in wonderland, you never were to be exact. I've heard and felt the strange madness long growing in your soul, but you were fortunate in your ignorance, your isolation, until all was revealed. You who have suffered, find where love hides, give, share and lose unless we die un-bloomed.

Another lover hits the universe and like the seasons, they often come and go. Another circle has been broken, and the hope of you having happiness through your son was torn away. I've been told that with death comes rebirth and so I relay this message to you.

"He was writing a letter to himself, wth?" she thought as her lips moved with the words that filled the page

Like all lovers and sad people, I am a poet in my own right, writing words that will tug and play with the heart strings of men and hopefully bring some relief or guidance as to what to do

In order to be reborn, I have to first die, like that reincarnation theory the HINDUS teach. I would've spent all my life trying to make other people happy but its time that I, Jaylan Hale, find happiness the only way I see possible. My new vision proclaims the death of morality, the true inhibited and uncensored expression of the self. With this I shall be truly free. Free of all feeling and free from the painful memories of my past .......

She was without words to say the least after she finished reading, and the only thing that she could feel was the urgent need to go and hug him.

She placed the small book beside her and closed the gap between them to give Jay an awkward hug. She held him tightly and though she was unable to find the words to express herself at the moment she did the only other logical thing, try to provide comfort.

Jay stood there quite surprised with his arms stretched at his side

She released him from the bear hug and went back to sit, taking the book in hand once again, now feeling awkward herself. To her surprise, he came and sat beside her

It was obvious that she had questions brimming at the tip of her tongue, waiting to be blurted out but she was somehow holding them back

"I know you have questions u wanna ask, so spill" he spoke with a certain sternness to his voice that jolted her from her inner thoughts that had by now caused her mind to be running 100m gauntlet.

She looked up, unsure of what angle to approach from, and so he just started talking and then her questions came.

By the end of it all he was exhausted and quickly wiped the tears that had began to flow from the corner of his eyes in hopes that Holland wouldn't see and that's when he caught her looking with a pitiful look in her eyes.......

He hadn't heard the car pulling into the garage nor the closing of the car doors but he definitely heard the opening of the door as the keys jangled.

He looked at his phone, now seeing that the time too had flew by, it was now 10:19....

"My parents are home" he softly notified her and they both stood at the announcement

His family soon entered the main room and was surprised at the visitor, especially Emmette.

The introductions were done and his mom was now suspicious as she could've been sure that she would've heard the name around the house before but she shrugged it off and they went upstairs, with a hesitant Emmette in tow, who was giving Jay intense and suggestive stares behind Holland's back until he broke out into silent mock laughter

"Your parents must be worried" he uttered

"They'll be fine, I had already told them that I might be late" she spoke as she entered her car

"And your boyfriend" he asked now leaning against the door.

"He currently holds that title no longer, since three weeks now" she informed him as she started her engine, prepared to leave

" Whhhhhhhhhhhhatt!!!!!!!!!, Hey wait!" he exclaimed as she started to drive off, she stopped and shoved her head through the window.

"That's a story for later Hale" she replied as she sped off into the night lights lining the sidewalks of the street.

He went inside and into his room thinking that despite the unfortunate events and shattered hopes, there was a new butterfly emerging from a cocoon and it was time for rebirth but with a different definition that he had in mind.