You're worth nothing and worth everything.
How many times have we been told we're priceless.At the same time the amount of times we've been told we're worthless just seems to be the only thing running in our minds most of the time.
What do you base your worth on
What comes to mind when someone tells you,"you're worth it."
When someone tells me I'm worth it means despite pain,despite not really wanting to do something they'll do whatever it may be for me cause I'm simply worth it.
When someone will get uncomfortable to make me comfortable or happy or even just to get a thank you from me.
I'm sure a lot of us base our worth on the amount of people willing to clean our roller coaster when it's dirty,willing to stand on the sides and clean you up like at the corner of a boxing ring after a hectic round.
Then it's easy for our currency to just drop,cause everytime you feel as though no one is telling you,"you're worth it."Your currency will drop.Every time you get knocked out and no ones in the corner to help you refresh for the next round,you'll simply feel like you're worthless.
Therefore we need to base our worth on something solid.
You need not put your worth in a human cause it's just in our nature to let people down and we need not put our worth in material things either.Material things are momentary and we aren't looking for momentary worth.
Telling you what to put your worth in I think is one of the most difficult things to do cause at times I may lose my self worth.
In my case my worth is founded in Christ and I can not deal with the topic of worth and not mention my religion,because it's the only way I've been able to define my worth in the most realistic way.
I know that God will forever tell me I'm worth it and that drives me to be able to continuously remind myself that my life is worth far beyond any humans imagination therefore they can't dictate my worth.
Even if you don't believe in God think about it like this. Millions of sperms swam and you made it to the egg first,the fact that you have a pulse where as tens of thousands of people have died in the moments it's taking you to read this paragraph about worth.If you cannot see your worthiness out of that then there's nothing much I can
really tell you.Hopefully when we get to the chapters about self love your worth will increase.
How do I redeem my worth?
Then there are girls that have been through the absolute most and telling them to count their worth is almost an insult.
With starting inside out I hear a lot of stories and it's just a sad reflection from society what so many girls have to go through.
But your background,your circumstances,the people around you or even how messed up you are has nothing to do with your worth.
We don't stop using money just because it's torn,dirty,wet ,we find a way to clean it up so we can use it again.I used to laugh at my dad cause he would even take his money notes when they tore.And he'd struggle for months to finally find someone who would take his money for goods.
He never gave up and threw the money away simply cause he understood the worth of the money.
It's a hard and long process separating difficult circumstances to your worth cause it's what society bases your worth on.
It's hard to tape yourself,clean yourself and again that's why it's easier to just go to God,but will get back to that in the last chapter.
When girls come to me under such circumstances I usually say something like this(this is just a version that I hope will accommodate everyone)
This particular I sampled from Thembalithle:
Title:Woman hate💔
I never chose the life I am living,was never there when it was manifested and will die life still on earth and eternal life forever lasted from where I am headed.
I didn't touch myself
Didn't ask to be violated
Didn't ask to be broken
Didn't ask to be washed up
Didn't ask to be another statistic
Why was a woman ever meant to be wherever hate lies.We turn to hate each other and though she still embraces the fact of being a woman.How do you feel hurting a fragile dish from dropping the plate it is served upon suicide takes place and we start judging. We are our own cause of woman hate and what is to be done of that?.
We turn to never do what the clock does and claim how priceless time was and is spent using cruelly insulted spits on our own.
Changing mindsets is what we were born doing,negative to positive we go.
My worth may not matter to you
You may have stolen parts of it
But I counted up and I have all back that you have stolen seven folds over
I'm more worthy than I was before
Brother,sister
You may no longer steal from my worth bank.
For the lord has redeemed all my worth
.TTP
This poem really does it's rounds because it touched on matters I tend to forget girls hurt girls as well,but I think In cases of hurt redeeming your worth requires forgiveness.
You know how they say forgiveness is not for you it's for the other person,they're not even lying it's so true,but we will get into that in quite a few chapters.(I know I keep saying that,but it's only because some things require a few pages rather than a paragraph or two.)
Your worth is higher than anything even your own mind can base it on,so asking the questions of what am I worth,shouldn't even be in our vocabulary cause our worth is beyond our own imaginations.
Write this down somewhere and meditate upon it:
I'm worthy
I'm highly favored
I'm worthy
I'm far greater
Than any lie
Than any pain
Then any circumstance
Than any fear
Than any scar
Than any mistake
Simply cause I'm worth it!!!
