Have you ever felt like you were stuck doing something or like you couldn't get out of a situation.Or even worse,like you payed for a roller coaster ride and now you couldn't get the seatbelt unbuckled,and you kept riding the ride over and over and over,but you weren't reaching the destination you thought you payed for,or as though you were just stuck at the same place and you couldn't do anything about it.
My friend Raymona describes it like this:
"You feel numb lost like nobody understands,like your ready to give up on everything and everyone,even the people who love you,you just feel tired like there's no more hope for you as if there's no point of waking up the next morning or laughing or smiling.Sometimes you don't even want to eat it's like being locked in a dark closet except you have the key to open it and let your self out,but you can't bring yourself to do it"
Being stuck on this Roller coaster is the first signs of depression,the first signs of growth and it's a sign that if you feel this way your doing something right or have gone the completely wrong way.
First I believe you need to evaluate if your the one that's payed for the ride,if you payed for your own ride then I'm sorry to inform you that your already heading the wrong way.Now I'm Christian,but that might not be the case for you.
I do believe that we all believe in something or at least someone,that there's someone controlling everything and everyone in someway.In my case if God has my life planned out why would I be paying for my own ride.I didn't ask for it,the journey of life was given to me.Therefore the person who planned the trip should pay for it.
Or maybe its case of you didn't pay for your ride,but your confused because,it seems as though your roller coaster isn't moving or it's moving in the wrong direction.It was fun when you got in and started riding cause you knew the plan,but when you couldn't catch view of the end and similar situations started reoccurring you started feeling like you were going in circles or simply just stagnant,I call that the 'dejavu' ride.
In other cases it just became painful rather than fun to be on that ride then in your case I call that ride 'growing pains' which isn't as simple to going through and in my opinion is the most difficult one to go through,and the one I believe that everyone who grows in life must face or evidently will face.
'Dajavu' ride
Firstly can we please establish that this ride may be called 'dajavu' or feel like 'dajavu' ,but it's not.
The first reason why it could feel this way,is because it's not your ride if it's not your ride,then it's not gonna move in the right direction,kinda like a boomerang it will just keep coming back,waiting for you to realize that,you then went and hitched a ride on the wrong roller coaster.
The second reason why it could feel this way is if your comparing your life to others,but will get into that a few chapters down.
The third reason could be if you have faith in nothing and trust no one,if this is the case then your constantly doubting the way the roller coaster is riding,doubting those in the other seats and in turn your missing so much of your own ride cause of worry,so it feels like the ride isn't moving.
'Growing pains' ride
This ride is my ride,I've been riding this ride for a while now and I'm growing tired,but it's okay cause I know that "pain is temporary and success is forever."
