You're confusing Will Lenney. I learn more about you day by day. I learn that you were indecisive. Or at least I think you are. Your words shattered me. Your words crushed my heart. I stared at myself in the mirror you words ringing in my ears. Your voice is so smooth but so spiteful.
"Slut."
"Hoe."
"Slag."
"Prostitute."
"Bitch."
"Hooker."
You say these words to your friends when I was in ear shot. Even going as far as to come up to me and say it to my face. But when your girlfriend wasn't about you mutter words that were supposed to make me feel good but I know you don't mean it. You even had the nerve to ask when I am gonna invite you over when my parents weren't home. You add the words "gorgeous" or "beautiful" at the end as if that would make me think that you were worthy of me. Stephen told you to fuck off but you grab his arm and threatened him. Which I couldn't allow. Stephen is a nice guy. So I told you to suck a dick and grabbed Stephens hand and we run off, laughing.
But the word that cut me he most.
"Unstable."
That's what hurt me the most. I try Will. Every day is a struggle. A struggle that I don't wanna deal with sometimes. But I forgive you. I mean how were you supposed to know?
How were you supposed to know how you're breaking me daily? It's not like we were friends.
My tears are splashing the page, wetting the paper. I need to stop crying before I ruin these words these words. These words that will remind me how you push me over the edge.
Because I know that is what you're going to do to me Will.
