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14. Friends?

Jack's p.o.v.

I heard the door finally open and rushed to see who it was. Strangely enough, I saw all three people I was expecting to see walk in at once... together... Vanessa

I looked Vanessa up and down. If I were straight it would be 'checking her out', but really I was just trying to see what she looked like. I was simply sizing her up. As more of a memorised pattern rather than instinct, I gave her a flirty smile and pulled her in to a cute hug, wrapping my arms around her waist. After all these years of pretending to be straight it's easy. It's like painting a picture, except it's just a picture with no meaning and emotion behind it. Me and Vanessa went to sit on the couch whilst Jonah and the love of my life- I mean, Zach  went upstairs to do who knows what.. fuck each other.

Me and Ness, as she had told me to call her for short, were awkwardly sitting with a meter's distance between us. There was very limited conversation, and a heavy, thick awkward tension between us. She every so often feebly smiled at me, before looking down at her hands and fidgeting with them, not knowing what to say. I searched my vast empty mind for conversation topics, desperately trying to cling on anything I could find. Suddenly her face lit up as she found something to break the awkward silence. "So, I should probably tell you that you, the boys and I are going to a party later today." I lightened up at the thought of a party. That would be great for my plan. "Zach's girlfriend Madelaine invited us." At the mention of Madelaine's name, I subconsciously rolled my eyes unknowingly. "What, do you not like Madelaine?" I looked at Vanessa panicked. She continued speaking. "Thank god! I thought I was the only one!" I looked at her in disbelief, raising my eyebrows, amused. "YOU don't like Madelaine??" I asked, glad someone understood. "But you haven't even met her!" I burst out laughing, doubled over in fits. I finally regained my breath and sat up to see that even Ness was giggling now too. "I know, but I heard her over the phone, and my gosh is she one fake ass bitch! She didn't even remember who Zach was at first! And she totally uses this high pitched annoying voice to try and manipulate people! I'm telling you man, there's something suspicious about her!" I bit my lip, putting that in to consideration. I knew exactly what Vanessa was talking about. "Yeah, you're right. One time she tried to use that voice on me. She came in to my room and started sitting on my bed next to me and touching my arm telling me how big my muscles were, and saying how comfy my bed looked. She even said that my walls looked 'nicely soundproof'. She even threw in the fact Zach wouldn't be home for an hour!" by the time I had finished we were both in fits of laughter again. "Look, I know that women gotta stick together and all, but I gotta say, she's a little bit of a cheat if she was tryna get you in bed." I thought about it for a while. What is cheating anyway? Are you cheating by TRYING to cheat, or actually GOING THROUGH with cheating and doing it? I shrugged of my thoughts and redirected my mind and our conversation back to the party. "So, the party. Do you wanna come up to my room and get ready?" she nodded and I showed her upstairs to my room.

When she got in she took a quick shower and I changed in to something more presentable. She walked out of the shower in nothing but a towel. I didn't have any initial response to it, but then I remembered I was supposed to be straight. My plan. I never told you guys about my plan. Thinking back on it now, it seems stupid and irrational. I was in a bad place when I thought it up, and now it just seems dumb. My plan was to try and date Vanessa, and make my gay go away. I feel so dumb for it now, and I really regret it, but at the same time maybe I should give Vanessa a shot? She's a very pretty girl. I enjoy spending time with her, so really, how different could friend and girlfriend be? I don't know, I'm just in a confusing place. I suddenly snapped out of my thoughts and noticed Vanessa was standing in front of me in her towel, making eye contact with me. I held her stare. Before I knew what was going on, she purposely dropped her towel. I was in so much shock and was too scared to look down. I didn't know what to do, all I knew was that Vanessa was leaning in to kiss me, and that really wasn't something I wanted to do. There was no way I was going to be able to do this plan! Abort mission, abort mission!!!!! Everything was slow motion as her cold lips pressed on to mine. I was frozen with fear, not moving or kissing back. I had never prayed so hard for something to come and save me. As if on cue, someone barged in to my room. As soon as they did, Vanessa pulled away and I swooped down to get her towel and wrapped it around her. I looked to see who it was, and it was...Zach. He was looking down at the ground, as if too scared to look anywhere else. He wouldn't dare look me in the eyes. "We're leaving now" is all he said before shuffling out. I realised I had been holding my breath and deeply exhaled. "Aw, we were interrupted. Well, I guess we'll have to see where things go later..." Vanessa said, this time throwing her towel on my bed. She took my hands and placed them on her chest, slowly moving them down to her breasts, all the meanwhile I had a look of pure horror on my face. She did this weird wink that I think was supposed to be 'seductive' and went to put her clothes back on.

I rushed out of my room full speed and practically bolted downstairs and in to the car, not even looking at who I was next to. After buckling in, I looked next to me only to be filled with realisation. Of course, the universe hates me. As if things couldn't get any more awkward, of course I just HAD to be sitting next to ZACH. He suddenly worked up the nerve to look up at me. His face held sorrow and hurt. "So, you and Ness..." he began. I cut him off, not knowing what I was thinking. "Ugh, don't get me started about her. She's a sweet girl and all, pretty but OH MY GOSH! In my room she suddenly started acting all forward and got naked in front of me! I was so scared and didn't know what to do! I nearly shit bricks! I really do like her, but not in that way." I suddenly realised I had just ranted to Zach, the boy I had not spoke to in what felt like months. I looked over at him and he was beaming from ear to ear. To see him happy made my heart swell. "You don't like Vanessa?" he asked eagerly. I shook my head no. his smile got even bigger, which seemed physically impossible. I realised it was because he was also smiling with his eyes. He looked truly happy for the first time in a long time. My heart ached. I missed him so much. Being this close to him made me want to snatch him up and never let anyone have him. He was like an addiction I was being deprived of. I needed him. I needed him so much and so bad that without thinking I opened my mouth and forced words out of it. "Zach please be my friend again please I want you oh my gosh did I just say that out loud oh my god oh my god oh my-" he cut me off. "Y-you want to be FRIENDS again!?" he asked, desperation in his voice. I looked in to his soft eyes, no longer afraid to say what I had wanted to say. "More than anything" I whispered out. "Will you.....?" I asked, pleading in my eyes. Zach nodded frantically. It was now my turn to smile from ear to ear as I grabbed his hand and held it tight. I lifted it up and kissed it, our fingers still intertewined. He turned a deep shade of red. "I've missed you" I whisper, loud enough for only me to hear.

Zach's p.o.v.

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