Emotional Writings Dump

Passage 5

Stufffff about my selfish problemssss

I'm never really used to getting my heart...hurt. But when its been a year, and I haven't seen or talked to you in all of that time, I'm going to want you to devise all of your attention towards me. I'm probably the most selfish, ignorant little six-year-old child, but you wanted to be my friend. You could have said no. I feel like I am Mike Wheeler, waiting for Eleven to return even though, from his knowledge, she is gone. In the exact moment, Mike sees Eleven for the first time in a year, I can relate. My best friend has been living in New Mexico for the past two years now and has not connected with me much. I understand if she's busy because I probably was too. I let her move on and make new friends, and as I hear from her for the first time this month, in years, I learn that she has made friends. I also learn that she is going to be vacationing here and I must see her. Apparently, she has fallen in love, the last of my friends to go, she did this and neglected to tell me. Again I understand if she is busy. But on a good note, she told me this. I mean she did wait but at least she got around to doing it. (I also waited to tell her things but that's not important right now.) anyways, my point. She has been a good friend of mine for quite a while. Apparently, she has gotten around to being other persons good friend as well. Right, well she has come back home on a vacation. Remember, I'm Mike, she's Eleven. Unfortunately, I still have two more days of school to suffer through while she has had the whole week off so far. (She landed here on Tuesday). MY POINT. She has come back, and the two of us face this same moment like that of the best episode in season two. Well, she has gone and made plans with my current good friend (how could I forget they knew each other in seventh grade), right in front of my face. I mean, I'm not complaining because I was added to this said group chat, but still. I mean, it's like, what if Eleven decided that when she saved all the people's from the demodogs, she didn't like Mike anymore and instead she likes...Lucas(?) now. Like, no. Your loyalty runs with me sweetie, I've waited longer, and you called me first with your problems. For real? Um nooo you were supposed to be my scapegoat after my first best friend moved. You were supposed to help me through middle school. But it's whatever you know. It's fine. I just wanted to hang out with you, and not Lucas. Don't get me wrong, I have to admit Lucas was my scapegoat for your absence. But in that bonding, I came to like Lucas. But not you two together. I just need people to StOp LeAvInG mE. My heart can't take it.    I'm sorry you had to read all that, I'm bad at explaining things and this is really the only way I know how to anymore.

[I sorta remember this one. Either the feeling was with me awhile or it was written recently which both are sorta true. Holy lord cringe warning, I love Stranger Things but to write about it like this???? Also the girl I'm writing about in this passage differs from the girl that I've been writing too in the past few passages. This may be the last time I complain about this girl (Gabby) because she's stuck around an been a good pal forever now. I no longer view her as a scapegoat, she's my new best friend but with long distance....]