Emotional Writings Dump

Passage 8

2/21/18 She's In My Dreams

It had happened last night. I had my first dream with Sadie in it. I don't even remember thinking about her much before I went to bed. Last night I barely paid as much attention to her as I wanted because I was watching a movie. Stupid me, she's too precious to ignore. After the phone call, she went to bed. A few hours before the movie, my friend had texted me out of the blue. I never mind that much, I never get to see her. One thing led to another and soon we were talking over the phone. It had been so long since we got to actually just talk, we made plans to hang out during the week for a sleepover. The plans turned out to accrue the very next day. We had planned to watch TV shows all day. Then planned that she'd be my first ever friend to meet Sadie. At around 12 last night, while all slept, I had (tried) to hook up two internet friends. I guess that got me in the same mood as the one I was in when I first asked Sadie out. That was a lovely night. Anyway, when I fell asleep finally, I don't remember much, but she was there. Right in front of me. I don't remember what we were doing but she was laughing her beautiful laugh, so it must have been fun. The dream had other people in it, none of which I remember. I mostly remember getting to be with Sadie. The dream must have been the first time we met. There was no long wait, no trip had to be made, we just appeared right before each other. I don't recall much conversation, just her gorgeous smile. I'm sure I was a nervous wreck and was talking up a storm. Things like, "It's so nice to finally meet you!" or "I can't believe you're actually here, right now, right in front of me." That sounds about right. I don't know where we were in the dream, we must have been inside, there was no landscape and the sky matched the floor. I don't remember how large or spacious it was inside, or even how many people were there. I do remember one thing, however. I hugged her. She hugged me. Just something wonderful, a great idea by one particular person, then we were in an embrace. It's stupid of me to fantasize, or even to dream about that small little thing, that seems so average to regular people. I mean, good thing I'm not normal. The hug was everything I'd hoped it to be. We fit perfectly together. Like two brand new puzzle pieces that snapped together, right after being taken out of the box. If it's not just my wondering mind, I believe I picked her up and spun her around a small bit. That could have been the laughing. I even remember thinking in the dream how lucky I was. How fortunate I am to be with her. I don't think we ever stopped hugging when I woke up. I hope that when I go to sleep tonight, and every other night that follows, I get to dream about Sadie.

[Yep so yep. This brings back memories. I actually ended up showing this to her and the one before this. I'm a strange little child. This one actually embarrasses me to reread it. I mean it's well written but I was just bein a star struck little chica. I mean god dang, I loved her a lot and thought we'd be together for a long time. Lmaooo boi was I wRoNg]