Emotional Writings Dump

Passage 23

[Hey gang this might be the last Sadie story for awhile :>  ]

6/4/18 Familiar Music

Anyway, if you've noticed, I've been acting funny lately. (At least I think I have?) I've been needing to tell you things but you haven't given me the time when we ft. The one that keeps me awake and is probably the biggest, is the fact that I miss you. A lot. I've been scared that me telling you this would result in something along the lines of what was going to be done when Caroline added her own little spin to the whole Maeve thing. I know this is probably the worst time to say anything as you said the other night that you seem to be losing friends quite easily these days, but I had to say something. The past few nights that I've stayed up late listening to music, haven't been the best. I accidentally keep listening to the same playlist that I did on the way to and from NH. This night is no different and I want my mind back. I want to listen to music without thinking about you. I want to go swimming without missing you. I want to go to camp without thinking about how going to camp is something we could have done.
   I want to be more open with you in any chance that I do survive this. For example, I DO NOT have a 'type,' I just have very poor coping mechanisms and choose to be mildly attracted to someone who looks exactly like the person I miss most. Meghan is a cool cat but I feel like the only reason I like her is because she reminds me of you. I also feel like my love introduction to anyone would bother them so I might leave Meghan alone for awhile. Heck I'm going to leave everyone alone for awhile starting after you.
   Sorry if I just shot everything in the face. I just really want my mind back. I also want to say what's on it sometimes as well, (You don't let me talk sometimes) also sorry I'm a pain, don't tell Caroline. Adiós, 'till the morrow my dear.

[So, she did see this one and I'm pretty sure since then she hasn't turned her read notification thing back on soo....
But it's all lit, we still talk n junks...I guess. But my second year of high school has started, and her first has also come to a beginning so we've been busy ya know? We're both at the safe place of comfort where we can talk to each other about the people we like (but I'm honestly not gunna tell her anything about anyone because when she asked me I'm pretty sure it was just a way of checking on me and making sure I moved on. But I'm gunna sell it that I haven't. She hurt me. So I'mma HURT HER >:(  )
But yeah this is probably the last story for ever or for a while so good job on making it this far reader, you are now somewhat caught up on my life events! The only reason you're fully not is because for no reason this book took me like three months to make soooo time marches on. And with that, who knows, maybe one day I'll have my heart broken by another human bein (I got my eye on a few rn ;) ) so perhaps more pages are soon to come.

...or not, judging by the fact this took me so long to annotate, copy and paste, then add a little somethin somethin at the end. Sooo good bye for a long time y'alls. Stay healthy and look up edgy teenage quotes if you need them, I know I do sometimes, they kinda help... buh bye!!]

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