Summer fling or the real thing? Zayn Malik trilogy Fanfiction

Chapter 45 Caught

"Opps?" Blair was the first one to break the silence, before walking past Hayley and leaving the room.

"Hay-"

"What did she say?"

I swallow but don't say anything mostly because I forgot how to talk.

"A quick fuck?, is that why she came here? Did you sleep with her"

"Hayley, listen to me ok-"

"What did she mean by that Zayn!"

" I messed with her before, back in Bradford. But that was before I met you, before I grew feelings for-"

"Don't lie to me!" She raised he hand cutting me off. "Who did you get in a fight with" she said calmly.

"What?"

"The bruise on your neck, it wasn't from a fight was it"

I bite my lip, shaking my head.

How can I tell the women I care abut that I slept with someone else. "Hayley... " I swallow the bile, as I continue "the mark on my neck, on your neck is a..." I pause again and grab her my the neck where the mark is "it's a love mark,"she shakes her head, rapidly and I want to stop it all. Stop the story, stop all the lies, and most importantly stop hurting her, but the words kept flying out. "When you went out with Harry I didn't know what to do and Blair was there..." She tries to pull her hands away from me, but I don't let her, I need her, I need some part of her. "One thing led to another and we..."

Hayley's hand finds its way out of my grin and lands on my cheek. I don't even try to hold my cheek, no matter how much it hurts. Instead I desperately searching for her hands, hold.

"You jerk how could you do this to me... to us... and you lied about it the first time" I walk closer to Hayley but she slaps me again.

"She gave you a hickey and you..." She stops herself mid way to groan "you... you... Asshole! She just brand-telling everyone that she owns you. Then you, then you come to me giving me the same thing like you own me?"

Before I could even say anything back Hayley slap me again, for the third time. I just let her keep slapping know that I messed up with her and if slapping me helps, I'm fine with it.

"You're right I'm an asshole, I shouldn't have slept with her, I shouldn't have lied to you, and I shouldn't have branded you without making us official. I saw Hayley's hand coming to my face again, but I stop her. I grab her hand and bring her into my arms. Hayley tries to pull back but I hold tight on to her. She stops fighting and starts to cry. I hold in my tears knowing that I hurt the women I truly care about for a moment of weakness or jealously. I try comforting her in the best way I can, but she yelling so loud I don't think she can hear me "I hate you, I hate you so much Zayn"

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I laid with Hayley on my bed and hold her tight. She cries on my chest and I continued to rub her back, whispering "I'm so, so sorry" over and over again. God I hope she forgives me. Hayley squeezed me back and I can feel that she is calming down. I whispered in her ear "Hayley I'm so sorry, I would never hurt you again". She hold me even tighter and my shirt fills with her tears. Hayley finally stops crying and I kiss her on her forehead and "Hayley I love you."

I know it's not the perfect time to be confessing something like this, but I do. I love Hayley, and I don't want her to leave. There has only been five women I ever truly love. My mom, my sisters and Hannah. As much as I loved Hannah, I know for a fact that what I feel for Hayley is true. I'm just angry at how long it took me to realize this-What Hayley and I have, this is what I want, need.

Hayley opens her eyes "I love you" just hearing her say 'I love you' give me faith that we can work out. Despite all the pain I put her through, we might still have a chance.

"I love you so much Zayn, but you hurt me"

I fell a tear drop on my cheek and I wanted to wipe it off, but I didn't want to remove my arms around Hayley. Instead I let if fall "I know, I know I hurt you and it kills me" Hayley lifts her head off of my chest "You didn't just hurt us, you ruined us, I don't know how we can ever move pass this" hearing the words 'ruined' leaving Hayley's mouth breaks my heart. I couldn't hold back anymore, the tears that I held ever since I slept with Blair pours out of me.