Clutching at straws

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It's reaching tipping point 

I'm tip-toeing, treading on egg shells, 

shyly becoming less forgiving 

tired of you taking 

tired of giving 

Vertically overlooking the drop from a dangerous height

Not battering an eye-lid at the drop or the shadows of the night

confidently aware of the result 

responsible for my failures 

I know it's all my fault. 

Wind pushing against me

It's keeping me from toppling from over the edge, 

I can enjoy a whole party without saying a word 

i'm busy talking to the demon in my head 

being dragged to the left 

being dragged to the right 

I have learnt in the hardest ways you cannot make everyone happy

And trying to make everyone happy, is what has made me loose sight

confidently aware of the result 

responsible for my failures

I know it's all my fault. 

A grenade

People have scampered at the fear of it's explode, 

I guess that's why is so quiet

I guess that's why I feel so alone

I do not want to gift wrap my pain 

and hand it to the ones that I love 

i just do not know how to get out of this rut

I've imploded to extremes of having more scar than skin 

And I've imploded to extremes of feeling like I cannot escape the head that I am in, 

confidently aware of the result, 

responsible for my failures, 

I know it's all my fault. 



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