Inside The Broken

Eyes

... so bright...so many...watching me... every move... everything I do... they have their eyes on me... I feel so small... scared....alone... their eyes... I hate it... I just want them to look away please.... stop watching me...die in pain... I am so scared I want to scream and shout at them to stop but my throat is so dry and weak... I am weak so is my mind I can't take much more why am like this why...stop it no more i want their eyes to close or look at something else anything but me just make this stop I hate it I can't breathe its so hard my lungs are giving up on m so is my body it feels weak and numb with all this in just don't look at me I am ugly and dumb, small, just kill me already to end my useless life no one can hear me in this place we call earth just end it end it all  can't take it, their eyes are watching me looking at my cuts, my blood running from my arm and mouth...  why do I feel so much pain  from their eyes everywhere I go I see thier dark looming eyes on me I can't run from them i cant end this endless pain I have in my life why is this so hard for me dont other peolpe see the eyes watching them to why can I see them I am so alone with these eyes  watching me over and over never stoping they just keep thier eyes on little me why is that they look at me am I nothing but a wast of time why I am trash no one cares for me in the wolrd its dark and cold I break so many times I lost myself while I breaking my min is nothing but darkness in this mad world why is that I cant take it I ask myself so many things but I dont know mysef I lie to make others happy I cant take anymore lies from myself I hate it thier eyes hold so much pain and joy of ohters being in pain but they loe my pain to them its  pure joy i dont understand them or get why they choose to look at me m i in that much pain that i was that blind to see the real reason i am breaking like this i break s much i cant tell whats real or its just my  mind  trcking me with thei s dumb fucking wolrd that i call hell which is my lif i hate it so muc i want to be free but i will nevr get that i am in hell everyday i will never see the ligth everyone calls heaven  when i just lie to myself saying it willl come soon just keep waiting ok stay strong bt i am  ot i am so weak that i cant move my body alf the time thier eyes is who i blame its thier fault i am like this i want to give up so many time when i hear those word i never been hapy in my life that i forot how to smile i only cry and hide from other i dont know how to deal with its hard then most people think its so much pressure to stay together to get throught life but what is life even is it something that the eyes know of but i dont to the point i am insane and they keep laughing at me that i break o much for i am only human in this wolrd trying to get it over with  it keeps breaking my mind cant take much more i hold onto one thing in my life its my ove for writing,reading, being someone else in a stroy i can be who ever i want to be but the eyes try to take that away from me.... why do they want me in so  much pain tht i am nothing but a hollow husk and wast of skin that someone made if anyone can see the eyes too hide as beast as you can if yu dont then they will eat you alive staring from your body till your nothing but bones on the floor like they duid to me they may loo harmless but they are monsters in the dark that we fear everyday in our lifes i am scared of myself that i will die  from my broken mind i want to be at peace but i cant because i die everyday to break myself its so much coming from me but i will say one thing when you see they eyes you know.... you fucking insane and can never be at peace with yourslef at all in your lif just thinking baout being normal is a dream for  many peolpe but its never going to happend because we are crazy i am insane like my mind that i used to have but all i have is my bloody arms,legs,cuts and weak lungs that fill with water its like i am drowning when i speak i want to die so many times in my life i lost count it was fine before they looked at me at the night i am weaking by the second they look at me etting my mnd away slowly and breaking it as i scream for help but no one comes to save me ever i am nothing to them but food why is that they prey on the weak like me in this world it hard to live like this now i cant take it i want to cut myself so many time that i just reopen my old wounds onmy body just make the bleeding stop so i can stop screaming and crying all my life i want it badly to end just kill me someone to  end my useless life .

-I fucking did it 1000+ yay me now I just wish I can type like that with my storys that you guys love and... why do you guys read my shitty works I just a girl with a fake smile and dream to write and make others smile for real-