India's pov He rubbed circles on my back as I cried. We were suppose to be sleeping but instead I began to cry. "I love you and that never changed".
I looked up with tear filled eyes. "I love you too. "
He smiled and kissed me over and over on my cheek. It then came to me that Jah and I hadn't kissed on the lips in a while. His eyes flickered to my lips. I turned the opposite way in my side. I felt him stare at me. I couldn't. Don't get me wrong I would always love Jahseh. Matter or fact he will always be the love of my life. He is the father of my children. But I don't know if I could forgive him.
I heard him sigh as he got up from the bed. I heard him pull on his clothes and then he left. When he left a tear slipped out of my eyes. It hurt. But I couldn't give in. Something was holding back from doing so.
The next morning I got up for my new job. I was back at ihop again working. Ms, Diaz still worked ther and she was happy to get me my job back.
I pulled on my clothes.
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I made my way in the rain to go to work. As I entered Ms.Diaz greeted me. Honestly I was missing my babies as I saw families seated at tables. But I knew they were safe with my momma.
I saw Jahseh in there by himself with his head in his hands. Ms. Diaz followed my gaze. "What happened between the two of you? Seems you guys are always going to square one. He's been in here since morning. Asked me what time was your shift and I told him. Said he needed to see you one last time" she whispered to me.
What did he mean one last time?
"You should go" she said ushering me but I shook my head. "You don't understand. He hurt me" I whimpered.
"Honey child I understand. I understand the pain that he must've it you in. But he is a man. He is a man for coming to you to make it right. It ain't right to cheat. But it ain't wrong to ask for forgiveness either" and.Diaz said as she made a plate of steak and set it infront of me.
"This is his order. Go talk to him honey." She said kissing my cheek and smiling. I sighed. My heart pounded in my chest like the first day we met. I smiled to myself as I thought about the things he said that day.
"Are you on the menu"
I held the plate I my hand as I walked to his table. Little did I know I was slowly killing the man I loved. I was making him die without noticing . He had the ability to take his own life for my own happiness and he was soon going to do it.
"Here" I said passing him the plate. He looked up to he sound of my voice. That's when I realized his eyes were red and puffy. My heart broke. "Do me a favor when you see Jay Jay and Jocelyn. Tell them I love them. Tell them that I'll always be here for them-
"Jah what are you fucking talking about?" I asked sitting infront of him. "I want you to be happy. That's my main goal in life. And if I don't make you happy then I'll leave for good" he whispered.
I furrowed my eyebrows. "Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo Onfroy I hope you know Damn well you make me happy. You don't think it's hard to look at my kids knowing they look just like you. There are times when I want to just drop everything and run back to you. No matter how many men I associate myself with they will never be you. NEVER! And do you want to know why?" I said standing up as I got in his face. Tears running down my cheeks. By this time everyone was looking at the commotion.
Ms Diaz nodded approvingly for me to continue. "Why?" He asked.
"Because you were that little boy who bought me ice cream when my dad couldn't care less. As you were that teenager who cared about me when no one did. And you made me feel beautiful when I didn't. You made me feel whole. When I lost you I lost myself. Y-you are my everything Jahseh and I can't just let you-
"I love you but I'm going to do it" he said his voice cracking.
"Do you hear the words coming out my mouth. I love you Jahseh. I love you a lot. " I said as I broke down.
"Aww" some people cooed.
"Jahseh pleaseeee" I begged him. He got up and kissed my forehead.
"I will always be yours and you will always be mine" he whispered and then he left. He left.
Ms Diaz looked at me sadly ."take a day off" she mouthed. I nodded gathering my stuff and leaving. I saw him walking across the bridge. I saw him. So I stopped and ran after him. My tears mixing in with the rain.
"JAHSEH!" I yelled. His head snapped to my direction. I ran to him and jumped on him. He stumbled back a bit but caught me. "Jahseh look. Don't do this. I wanna be your wife again. I wanna be yours. I wanna kiss you. I wanna wake up to you in my house, in my bed-
He cut me off by kissing me. I kissed him back wrapping my arms around his neck. Not caring that the rain was wetting me. Not caring that we were alone by an abandoned bridge. All that mattered was us.
He pulled away and smiled that intoxicating smile that I had grown accustomed to. "I love you babygirl. I'm sorry" he said caressing my cheek.
"Maybe is we go home, you can show me how sorry you are" I whispered.
He raised and eyebrow and smirked. "Who said we had to wait till we get home. Get in the car" he said.
