Thoughts

I fear to get older

I am afraid of getting older
I am afraid that i waste all the time
That my youth goes by
That i cant explore the world
I want avoid to be disappointed
Want to die now
Before it's over and I regret what I did
When I lay in bed and think about the future
I am afraid to be at the point one time
When I get to know I didn't use my time
But it doesn't matter 'cause the days go by
And it will be over whatever I do
However I will die
It doesn't matter if I avoid my chance
I am scared to do all wrong
I am between now and never
I see years already passed by
And what I didn't made
It's a hole now
A mess in my mind
What did I do to fear the time
What is if I never achieve one of my goals
I wanna die now
Before I hate myself more
Before I struggle with an adults life
When I can't even survive school