Starting New - Xxxtentacion

Chapter 15 - Love In His Eyes

"No we ain't watching that shit" Isaiah complained. I looked over at him quickly.

"This was our movie time. You chose to sit with us so you watch what we pick" I snapped jokingly at him. He put his hands up in defense as Faith laughed.

"Damn ma chill" he said back then chuckled.

"Plus I'm sure Ki is gonna be here any minute now" I said and continued to look through the list of movies.

"Oh Ki is coming here" Faith said confused.

"Yeah we making song" Isaiah told her. I heard the back door slid open meaning Jahseh is coming back inside.

"Yo Gabe is coming here in like an hour" Jahseh told Isaiah. I looked behind us and saw him walk down the hall way to probably the studio they have in here. I turned back around and continue to look at the movie list. I went to say something, but the door bell rang.

"That's probably Skies" Isaiah said as he stood up and started walking over to the door. I took a deep breathe. I hope it's not awkward between us. I mean I don't think it will be. We left off fine. We are good. I hope. "Oh hey" I heard Isaiah say in a confused voice. I looked up to see it wasn't Ki at the door. It was a girl. I've never seen her before. She has short curly hair and stood looking nervous.

"Long time no see" She said to Isaiah and she even sounded a little nervous. He stepped aside and she walked in. He shut the door then looked at me like he felt bad. Why? "Hi" she said to Faith and I.

"Hello" I said quietly with a smile.

"Hey" Faith said back then took the remote from me. "Let me pick because you being slow right now" she said and started to go through the list.

"Jahseh!" Isaiah yelled for him. I looked over at them quickly then slightly turned so I can look behind me into the hall way. I saw Jahseh walking down it. A confused look washed over his face as he got to us.

"Geneva? What are you doing here?" Jahseh asked as he started walking over to her.

"I uh need to talk to you Jah" She said sounding sad. Who is she?

"Ight let's go out back" he said to her and she started walking to the back door. I watched as Isaiah grabbed Jahsehs arm.

"Come on bro" He mouthed to Jahseh. He pulled his arm from Isaiah's grip and followed this girl outside.

"Who was that?" I asked him.

"His ex" He told me.

Oh.

His ex is here for him.

Nice.

I nodded and looked away from him. It bothered me. Maybe I shouldn't let it. Maybe they have unfinished business and I don't know maybe want to get back together. I'm not getting in the middle of it. The door bell rang again, but this time I didn't look. That girl was pretty. Much prettier than me. I need to stop. A movie isn't going to help get my mind off the fact that Jahseh is with his ex right now. It's not like we are together, but I have feelings for him. It would bother anybody.

I felt Faith slap my arm bringing me out of my thoughts. I looked up at her and she nodded towards the door. I looked over to see Ki and Isaiah staring at me.

"Sorry. I was- I just was really into my thoughts" I said standing up and hugging Ki. He chuckled.

"Don't worry about it" he said as he pulled away. "You gonna come in with us while we make this song?" He asked me.

"Yeah sure. That cool Isaiah?" I asked as I looked over at Isaiah. He smiled.

"Of course. Come on" He said then started walking over to the studio with Ki. Faith stood up and we followed them.

"Hold on. I'll meet you in there" I said to Faith and walked over to the sliding door to the back yard. I saw Jahseh and his ex sitting at the table talking. Her back was faced towards me, but I can tell she was talking. He just stared at her as she talked.

Jahseh looks at her like he's sad, but also with love in his eyes. He must still be in love with her. I don't want to get in the middle of that. I shouldn't. Maybe whatever is going on between him and I should stop. I walked away and into the studio. I saw only three chairs. Everyone was sitting which means I'm left to stand.

"Stas you can sit here" Ki said as he stood up. I shook my head as I walked over to him. I pushed his shoulders down making him sit again. He looked up at me confused. I sat on his lap and wrapped an arm around his shoulder.

"Now we can both sit" I told him. He just stared back at me and nodded. A slight smirk came across his face. I just kept a straight face.

"Alright so back to writing" I heard Isaiah say slowly. I looked over at him and Faith who was looking at us a little confused, but then shook it off. "I got my verse"

"I got part of my verse down on my phone" Ki told him as he took out his phone. I laid my head on his shoulder as he started to read his lyrics. "Last year I was broke this year a nigga rich, Ima ride or die for my clique, you get one shot, so don't miss. I get jammed up, I won't snitch, you a fan, scream like a bitch. Quicksand, sink in a ditch, been a man since I was a kid" He kept going, but I tuned him out as I got into deep thought about Jahseh.

I wonder if him and his ex are getting back together. I hope not. I admit I really like him. But it is what it is, I guess.

"Ight that's dope. We can finish both our verses then record it" I heard Isaiah say. I saw him writing on some paper. I wish I was creative enough to write a song.

"You okay?" Ki asked me.

"Yeah" I answered him not moving. I'm tired too. Stokeley had me up all night because he was writing some song so I stayed with him. I felt bad leaving him. Plus it was kinda cool to watch him.

"Yo Jah she leave?" I heard Isaiah ask. I picked up my head to see Jahseh walked into the room. He just stared at me. I could tell he's confused.

"Yeah" he answered then looked away from me. "What are you guys doing?" He asked.

"Finishing our song" Isaiah told him. Jahseh looked back over at me. I just stared back. I watched as he looked at Ki, back at me, then he looked down and shook his head. He turned around and walked out. I looked over at Faith who looked at me as if she knew I would look at her. She looked at me like she felt bad. For what?

"What should we call it?" Ki asked.

"Oohhh let's call it LilSkiesFuneral." Isaiah suggested with a laugh. We all laughed too.

"That sounds dope" Ki agreed.

Should I get up and go find Jahseh? Maybe I should leave him alone.