Starting New - Xxxtentacion

Chapter 47 - Broken Trust

As I walked into the house, I saw the boys chilling in the living room. Ki just dropped me off and now I wanna rest. In the living room it's Jahseh, Stokeley, Wifi, Trunks, Gabe, Coolie, and Craig.

"Yo!" Most of them yelled when seeing me. I just smiled and shook my head.

"What are you guys doing?" I asked walking over to them. I looked at Jahseh who just looked at me then looked away. No hello, nothing. I brushed it off and sat on the arm of the couch Isaiah, Gabe, and Craig are sitting on.

"Just chilling" Coolie said back to me.

"Yeah. How you feeling?" Stokeley asked me. I sighed.

"Like ass. I'm so hung over" I told him.

"What'd you do last night?" Craig asked me.

"Me and my friend Faith went to some club"

"We just chilled here. Y'alls plan sounded better" Isaiah said with a laugh.

"Me and Craig are gonna go make our song now" Jahseh said standing up.

"Oh word" Craig said standing up also while Jahseh started walking towards the hall way. He just looked at the ground. Not at nobody. Is he okay? The boys carried on with a conversation was Jah and Craig left the room.

I feel like I need to see if Jahseh is okay. But do I go in there and just ask? Do I text him? I don't want to interrupt them. Maybe I should just go in there. I stood up and walked down the hall.

"I think you just need to try, man. Just really show her and try to win back her trust" I heard Craig say from the studio. I didn't walk in there. I'm not trying to eavesdrop, but I mean I kind of am now.

"I did" I heard Jahseh.

"Not just by telling her she's your girlfriend-" Jah cut him off.

"I apologized multiple times and told her how much I truly care about her. She's been hurt before and has been cheated on many times then I went and did it to her. The one thing I said I wouldn't do, I fucking did. If I could go back and change that, I would in a heart beat. It's been all I think about because she's an amazing girl and I know what it's like to be cheated on. It fucking hurts and makes you feel worthless. I don't want her to feel that way again. I don't know what happened, I was just so drunk and careless. The girl just wouldn't leave me alone then she just randomly grabs my face and kissed me. I only kissed back for a few seconds before realizing what the fuck was going on. I hate that it happened bro. I know Stas won't trust me again. I just- I don't know" Jahseh ranted.

I slowly walked away trying to not make any noise. Wow. I don't even know what to say. I walked into the backyard and sat down on one of the chairs around the table.

I believe he's truly sorry and it was just a honest accident. But I'm still scared. It's hard for me to trust anyone, but I trust him. I think I need to talk to him and tell him that I do trust him and that I'm willing to start again. I know he cares. I just have such strong feelings for him. I think we need to start again.

I heard the sliding door open making me look up to see Jahseh walking out.

"Hey" I said quietly. He sighed and sat down at the table with me.

"I apologize" he told me. I nodded slowly. "I apologize for what I did to you. I truly am sorry. You don't know how much this is fucking me up, Stas." I know he's being genuine. I'm not sure what to say back. I can't just say it's okay let's move on from it, because it's not okay. I didn't think we'd end up in this situation.

"It made me lose my trust for you" I said as I looked down at my hands on my lap.

"I understand that"

"But I'm willing to try again with us" I told him as I looked back up at him. He looked a little shocked.

"For real?" He asked as a small smile started to appear on his face. I nodded.

"For real" I said with a giggle at how he looks so shocked. He stood up and walked over to me. He held his hands out for me. I put my hands on his and he grasped them pulling me up. His hands went to my waist as I stood in front of him and my hands went onto his chest.

"Well with that, will you be my girlfriend again?" He asked. I smiled a little wider and nodded.

"Yeah I'll be your girlfriend again" I said and wrapped my arms around his neck while he pulled me closer to where our bodies are pressed against each other.

"Now I can kiss you without you yelling at me" he joked. I playfully rolled my eyes and laughed.

"Just kiss me before I change my mind" he laughed before pressing his lips to mine. I missed this.