I Need Him

part 8.

Tay's p.o.v

I feel weak, I feel like shit, I feel like a bitch, I feel like an ass hole.

That's is exactly how I feel about myself right now.

last night I kicked Darrell out but i really couldn't be mad at him because we were both drunk. But, i am mad at myself for not letting khalil explain the whole story to me.

That's my fuxking problem, I'm a stubborn ass bitch and I don't listen.

I put my face in my hands as i cried all my emotions out.

i finally got out of be and took a shower . i then cooked some breakfast for me and ate it.

i then called liyah and told her what happened . she told me that i should go talk to him, but i just don't know how and the right time.

khalil p.ov

I sighed as i  listened to my mama talk to me about this whole situation.

mama: If you love this girl, you need to talk to her khalil. she said looking at me .

me: But mama, she cheated on me . i sighed.

mama: Khalil, I want you to listen to me real good boy , you've been with her for 6 months and you claim you already love her, and I bet you that the reason why she did it was because she was mad at you . but remember people make mistakes  all the time , but you need to go sit down with her and talk to her so that you have the full story.

i sighed.

mama: do u understand? she said sternly.

me: yes ma'am .

mama: ok I love you baby. she said standing up from the couch with her arms out.

me: love you to ma. I said hugging her.

I then left out the door and got into my car. I drove off thinking about what my mama just said. Maybe I do need to talk to tay but only if she tries to talk to me first.

Tay's p.o.v

1 week later --

I sighed and put my phone down for the 5th time . I've been contemplating on whether or not if i should call khalil.

i picked it up again and dialed his number but quickly pressed the delete button because I realized I couldn't do it.

ugh !

I then got a text from liyah asking if i talked to him yet. I replied with a no and sighed.

I stood up from my bed and paced the room.

me: you know what, I'm gonna just stop being a Lil bitch and stop by his house. I said as I grabbed my purse and shoes.

I hopped into my car and drove to his house. As soon as i got there I knocked on the door.

when the door opened chris was standing there .

me: Hey chris. I smiled.

chris: Hay tay, wassup ? he asked

me: um I'm here to talk to khalil.  I said nervously .

chris: go get yo man back sis. He said stepping aside so that I can walk in.

I smiled at him and walked to the living room where I heard Lamar's, Trey's, Jordan' s,  and Khalil's voices.

As soon as they saw me they all stopped talking. I looked at khalil and he looked at me with no emotion. it was getting pretty ackward until chris walked into the living room with his loud ass.

chris: yo what we fina ea--

He said but realized the silence in the room.

khalil : what do you want ? He asked me with no emotion .

me: I wanna talk.  I answered back.

khalil: about ? he asked like he was confused.

I sucked my teeth.

me: khalil please just talk to me. I pleaded

khalil sighed.

khalil: can yall leave please . he asked the guys and they quickly rushed past me to the front door going out the house.

I took a seat next to khalil but he stood up right when I sat .

I sighed.

khalil: you got 5 minutes. he said sternly.

me: look, I'm sorry I didn't listen to you and let you explain I was being selfish and immature. I was just mad that you got someone else pregnant cause I wanted to be the one to have your first child. And as far as the whole Darrell situation goes we were both drunk and that was a huge mistake that I wish never happened. I said sincerely.

He looked at me with this sad look on his face.

khalil: well your just gonna have to accept the fact that I'm going to be the father of another woman's baby .

I forrowed my eyebrows.

me: khalil I don't  have to accept anything. I said matter of factly. 

khalil: well in order for you to be with me your gonna have too. he said with an attitude.

me: so your telling me that i just can't be with you cause i love u but that the only way i can be with u is if i accept that another bitch is having your fuxking child. I said raising my voice.

khalil: first of all yeah and second of all lower your damn voice in my house. He said mad.

me: you know what, fuxk u , fuxk this , and fuxk us! I yelled then stormed out to the house.