delusional?

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Reality and imagination merge

and that's where it starts

the deep dark abyss 

with waterfalls,materialistic,capable of being touched and felt-of tears

which never escaped the cage of my eyes

the little drizzle the fountain gives away

of salt and water bottled too long...refusing to roll down my cheeks

yet-burning my heart

the sorrow,the melancholy-all virtual

is the pit dark?or is it just me being blind...

i scream-

but no one hears-i think 'why is the world so arrogantly deaf?!'

or maybe the scream back,but it is ME who is the deaf one...

unable to hear anything as i drown in the pool tears that never came out

and volcanoes of pain that never erupted

of cocoons of memories which remained underdeveloped

i drown

and i drown

in this weird dark place

i suffocate,struggling to move my limbs with the flow of the waterfall suppressing me

or maybe...am i just lashing my hands out in thin air?

something that doesn't exist

reality and imagination meet to conspire the death of realization of my existence

exhausted

i blame myself

and even the little exit in the corner gets covered by a rocks-rocks thrown by me at myself

waiting for someone to clutch me

desperate to feel a hand hold me

to feel something real assured-something concrete for once

i scream,wail,howl,cry out for someone to pull me out of this hell

to grab my hand and whisper 'run' in my ears

a sound to echo in this invisible prison

and i want that 'someone' to be my jailer

the person who locked me in this place

agonized me and blamed me

i want that person to be-

me.

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