New Beginnings

One Last Time

You make me feel like sleeping on a bed of swords is safer then sleeping at your side,

You make me feel like swallowing snakes is safer then kissing your lips,

You make me feel like living a life in total solitude is better then ever falling in love with you,

You make it feel like reaching out to receive nothing is like being forced to stay outside in the middle of a blizzard and watch everyone else be warm inside,

You make it feel like every whispered I love you and every promise made meant nothing in the end,

You make it feel like I was better off numbing myself to the world then feeling this kind of real love,

You make it feel like every choice I've ever made has been for nothing because in the end I lost you,

You make it feel like I am wrong for still being in love with you even though I'm trying so hard not to be,

You make it feel like all the stars and the moon disappeared so I've been left in complete darkness,

You make it feel like every happy moment means nothing because there will be no more happy moments with you,

You make it feel like friendship means nothing because why make the effort if it hurts you,

You make me feel like every regret in my life has been nothing compared to the moment I first said hello to you,

This all being said, I would still go back and do it all over again if it meant I could see your smile one last time,

I would do it all over again if it meant I could lay in your arms and hear your heart best one last time,

I would do it all over again if it meant you would once more gaze upon me like I was the only woman you would ever care about one last time,

I would do it all over again to hear you say. I love you. One. Last. Time.