Love Is Not Over || BTS x Reader 18+ [COMPLETE]

8. Do You Think it Makes Sense?

I look at the new student and caught him staring. I purposely smirk and talked back at him while he only looks down embarrassed.

I drink water, trying to wash my mouth thoroughly, not wanting the guys taste lingering in my mouth. I feel annoyed even though this isn't my first kiss.

I lost my first kiss in freshman year after my football game. You'll know more about that next time. I'm just thankful that I haven't lost my virginity yet.

I know, does that even make sense? Actually yes. I always took other peoples virginity but I never gave my own. I never really fought with guys and if ever they get fucked by me, I would either tell them to jack themselves off, or I pump it myself, also, I'd always make them wear cock rings, as a pleasurable punishment.

For girls, I always use dildos. I take THEIR virginity, but I don't give mine. I guess, thats how cruel I am. Everyone here in this school thinks I've lost my virginity, but, they over exaggerate things. I've never had sex with a man.

"Hey! (Y/n)! Tell me, what do you think about my big rings?"

"(Y/n)! You know my dad just bought me a big car yesterday! A freaking jeep!"

"(Y/n)! You should come to our mansion sometime! Lets have a sleep over!"

Tell me if you get it ;)

As soon as I sit down, I'm  bombarded with questions that I never even really answer cause they answer it themselves, but even if they asked me seriously, I'm not the type to be 'girly'. I admit, I really want new friends, but because of my status, everyone is afraid of me.

I always think to myself, that I should change; that people would like me better if I was friendlier, but I was always afraid of letting go. I never really think of what I would do if my status went down to being normal.

Do you think it would make sense if I told you that I want to experience being a normal person for once? Do you think it would make sense if I t old you that I want to try to be nice for once?

For once I want to see how a normal person lives. Someone who has only what he/she needs and not what he/she wants. Someone who doesn't get to experience certain things that only rich people can experience. Someone who knows what true love is between family and a significant other.

For once I wanted to experience being a average high school student who is not known in the whole school but is only known by a few people in the batch. Someone who gets average scores and is not praised so much by the teacher. Someone who is only average on looks and height.

Do you think it would make sense if I told you that I want to experience what I do to others? I want to feel what they feel. I know you probably don't understand, I see them cry after what I've done to them, but I never understand why.
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