Proof a heart is strong

Moving on out

I woke still in the hospital bed, i looked up at the big grey clock, it was 5:30 in the morning. I called the nurse asking for food. 

“You fell asleep when the other nurse came in. You really need to eat.” She brought in a tray full of food. “I hope you life ginger ale, unless you want water.”

“Ginger ale is fine, thanks.” I smiled at her. On the tray was some sausage, eggs, biscuits, and hash. “It looks good”

“You better eat it all!” she joked. “I’ve been working here a while, and well, I’ve seen to many people die. I try my best to look out for everyone. If i see you here again, it better be when you give birth. I’m not trying to nag, i’m sorry.” she looked at me, smiling.

“I’ll eat it all, promise.” i giggled “Are you a mom?” 

“No-” she rolled her eyes. “I’m not able to have kids, i don’t make enough eggs.” she shrugged. “I want to find a guy who’s willing to adopt a child with me.” 

“That’d be nice. It’s rough not having a dad, trust me.” 

“You know, i grew up with a single father, that was rough too.” she rubbed her eyes. “Just eat for me please, i’ll check on you later.” i nodded. 

I started think about my twins, i couldn’t raise them alone. I refuse to!  Nathan and I could work it out, i just feel sorry, i did like him, crush wise, but he lovedme. I didn’t love him in that way. 

I started to eat, 

“oh god this is so good!” i probably sounded like a pervert, the nurse walking by looked in the room with a confused look on her face. I didn’t care, my insides were dancing, maybe it was my babies dancing, happy to finally eat. “I’ll never leave you hungry again, oh my god, how did they make these damn eggs?!”This is like sex for my mouth! i thought. I looked back at the clock, it was just past 6 a.m. 

“Food, i need more food!” 

**** Ryan’s POV **** 

She pregnant, i never thought it would happen, not now. I had to face the facts, she moved on, she’s changed, she’s not the girl i loved back in high school. When she told me she was pregnant, it just hit me the wrong way. I was never mad at her, old feelings just flooded back, but i’m more mature than that. 

I wasn’t in love with her anymore, so honestly i respect her for going through with the pregnancy. I don’t know what came over me, i’m just confused. Its not even Michael’s baby, but i’m glad he’s not the father. What if he’s an abusive father too? 

The night the truth came out was a week exactly before Jackie’s 24th birthday. Se called me crying .

“Ryan, where are you” i raised my eyebrows.

“Home, are you okay?”

“No” she said, my eyes narrowed.

“What happened?”  i could hear her crying from the other line.

“We got into a fight, and i have a black eye!” i got off of my bed.

“He fucking punched you?!” i put my shoes on with one hand “Where the fuck is he?!” 

“He left, i don’t know where he is” she cried harder. “Can you come get me? I’m at our apartment.’

“I'm on my way!” 

On the drive there all i could think was of an easy way to kill him from putting his hands on a women, never mind a good friend of mine. No, Just no! What could any women do wrong to get punched in the face? Real men don’t hit women. I was beyond pissed!