Morning Star

Promises

"I see. Well I'm sure we can get started on the ritual as soon as we can." Magnus said.

"Good. Do you know where Jordan is?" I asked.

"Right here, long time no see eh. I was starting to worry about you just a little." He separated his index finger and thumb about half an inch.

"I need to talk to you if you have a minute." I said.

"Sure."

We stepped outside Magnus's apartment.

I paced around before I spoke while Jordan leaned on the wall waiting.

"I need you to do me a favor," I had my back to him, "I know you were there when Magnus explained to us what we had to do in order to get the demon out of Alexia. You heard what I told her. If she dies I'm following her, I'll never be able to live with myself if she dies. But I won't be be able to do it. I won't have the strength to plunge that sword into myself." I finally turned and looked at him. The expression on his face was pure surprise, he now stood straight facing me.

What I said next seemed to kill him. "I need you to that for me. I need you to put that sword in me. You have to promise me that you will do that for me when I can't do it myself."

I looked at him pleading with my eyes. I know I'm asking him to do the impossible but I had no other choice. Jordan is the only one I know I can trust at this point. I just hope he will.

"I can't do that," he managed to say.

"Yes you can. If it were you would have wanted someone to kill you if Maia died? By your own hand!" I said with frustration.

The look on his face was something I didn't recognized. I think he was trying to replace me and Alexia with him and Maia. He knew he would ask me what I'm asking him if he were I this situation. He looked at me.

"I know for sure as hell that I would be asking you the same question if I were in that position. So yes, I will. I will do that when the time comes. If it happens." He said tensely.

"Thank you Jordan so much."

I felt so relieved. I stepped forward and put my hand out. He didn't hesitate to reach over and clasped it. I squeezed hard and let go. I nodded my goodbye and headed back to my car.

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I awoke to find the same people who wanted to kill me looking down at me. I sat up quickly trying to move away from them.

"Whoa, chill girl we're not gonna hurt you." Nathan said holding his hands up.

"You tried to kill me once. Where's Sean? And just so you know, Alexia's not happy. She feels betrayed that you guys wouldn't listen to Sean when he wanted to explain what Valentine had done to her." I said none too happy.

"We're sorry about that. You're right, we did overreact." Said Shelby.

By that time Sean came through the door.

"Hey can I talk to you guys for a minute? Alexia can get cleaned up and get something to eat." Without further word they left.

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"I don't know how much Magnus told you about the ritual but you do know what I have to do in order for the demon to come out." I said.

They were all on the couch looking up at me.

"Look I disagree with all this but I know that it's the only way to get her back. What if she does die on us?" Nathan asked.

"You think I haven't thought of that? For the last couple of days that's the only thing that's been haunting me. I won't be able to live with myself if she does. Besides I've already gotten that part taken care of. I just need to know who wants me to do it and who doesn't." I looked at them waiting for an answer.

Stephanie stood. "All I want is for my sister to be back. I know there's a risk and I know her well enough that I'm sure she would want this. So yes."

Shelby was next. "I agree. I know that I would want someone to do the same for me so yes."

Nathan stood next. "I don't know. I can see how this will end if something doesn't go right. But Sean I trust you, and I'm going to trust you with her life so yes."

Jack came and stood right in front of me looking at me dead in the eye. "If something goes wrong I'll ensure you get taken care of. But just remember that her life is in your hands."

I nodded once and he moved back to stand beside Stephanie.

"Good. It was a hard decision for me but I hope everything just goes well. And I'm gonna go ahead and apologize now, I'm sorry if I failed you but don't worry I'll be taken care of as well." I remembered my conversation with Jordan. "Magnus said that we will get started tomorrow early in the morning. He have to be at his apartment before sunrise to get started with the ritual. We have all the things we need, all we have to do is show up," every single one of their faces showed sympathy and nervousness. Sympathy for me and nervousness for her.

I bid them good night and headed to my room. Alexia wasn't there so I got showered and dressed. I slipped on some sweatpants and an old shirt. I went to Alexia's room and knocked. I got no answer. After about two minutes I left.

The whole night I didn't sleep. I stared at the celling for hours. In the morning my eyes started to get heavy.

I awoke ours later sweaty and with tears in my eyes. The dream I had killed me. I was in a clearing and Alexia had died. But I couldn't kill myself, I was alone. Years passed and I lived with that forever.