Lapidot Oneshots

amnesia

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

{"Peridot, let's go to the boardwalk!" Lapis excitedly gripped my arm as she exclaimed. "Ok. But no drinking." She had a pout, then agreed.
•
We looked into each other's eyes, hers sparkling like the ocean at midnight, under every shining star. I noticed slight chagrin mask her face as she leaned in to connect our lips. We stayed until we both were gasping for air, our fingers tangled in the other's hair.
•
"Lapis is fine, she's completely over it by now. In fact, she's back with Jasper over in Hawaii." It felt like Aquamarine just spat in my face. I can't believe she'd say something like that. No wait, actually I can. "Oh uh, ok. Thanks I guess." I left, feeling tears prick my eyes, and eventually flow down my face.}

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

{Lapis stared out into the distance where the sun was dipping into the horizon. Laying beside her was.. someone she didn't even know she'd allow to be near her. Though they were together, she still felt a sense of lonliness.
•
Along with that loneliness came hostility. She and her s/o would frequently fight, spitting back insults at the other. Times like that she slightly remembers a past relationship. One where there was only love and affection, and she would get spontaneous love notes that made her world.}

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

{"I love you Peri. I'll never stop loving you. Y-you're the best thing that's happened to me." She further placed her head into the crook of Peridot's neck, awaiting peaceful sleep with her lover.
•
-Status update from Lapis Lazuli-
Life is good. No worries, no hardships, just me and the ocean.}

'Cause I'm not fine at all

{It had been days since she even acknowledged anyone besides herself. Since the incident months ago, she hasn't been talking to anyone, or interacted at all.}

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

{She stood in the doorway of Peridot's room, shaking, and breathing heavily. "I- me and my family have to move back to Hawaii.." Lapis's hair was a mess, mascara and eyeliner were running down her cheeks as she looked down at her feet and sobbed.
•
"I think it's best i-if we just forget about us. And everything that happened here.
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I screamed and cried in my bedroom for what seemed like years. I couldn't bear the realization I'd never see her again. I wish I could just wake up one day, and never remember any of this.
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Her chest rose and fell as she breathed. Her creulean hair was tousled and in her face. She was sound asleep, the only noises being her snores, and occasional incoherent mumbling. I loved her so much. That was what was on my mind as I fell asleep with us entangled together.}

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

{"C'mon Peri, let's take a selfie!" She wove her phone infront of her face, and tried to convince Peridot to comply. "Oh fine. I guess just one will do." But Lapis did not just take one, she filled a whole album. As well as stealing Peridot's phone and spamming with pictures of herself.
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She went through her gallery, knowing the effect it'd have on her mental state. She looked at all the pictures Lapis had taken. She wished it was all a dream.
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"Yo, I know you're hurting, but we're here for you dude. You can come to us anytime." Amethyst tried to make her friend feel better, but to no avail. Peridot eventually left the coffee shop her friends invited her to, much to their dismay.}

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

{"Haha, yeah. Take that!" She had an impromptu celebration for beating Jasper in a -who can stay on the board the longest- contest while surfing.
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"Lapis Lazuli has been accepted into the finals of the annual Hawaiian Surfing Competition. Now a word from our young local." The tv turned off just as Lapis showed up on the screen. She was confused as why, until her mom spoke up. "You really shouldn't be watching this. Come on, I'm taking us to Waffle House to cheer you up."}

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

{I awoke in a cold sweat, breathing heavily and rapidly, I could feel my eyes puffy and sore. My head was pounding as the constant memories of this nightmare flooded my mind like a storm surge during a hurricane.
•
I had to make sure it was a dream. I looked down, and my gaze was immediately met with that creulean hair that made her look like the human embodiment of the ocean. I slowly slid back down by her side, wrapping my arms around and pulling her close in my embrace as my breathing came to a normal pace. She tightened her grip on my waist as she lay her head on my chest.}

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

{I felt like my existence was irrelevant as I stood near the cliff where many adventurous teens would cliff jump and dive into the water, just as I decided to do. The gentle, yet harsh breeze ruffled my hair as I closed my eyes. Right before crashing into the rough waters just feet below me, I almost thought I heard her voice calling my name.

Maybe sometime we'll meet again.
Maybe this attempt won't kill me.

And maybe I'll get amnesia..}

A/N
So, this isn't really something I've done before, but I can't lie, I like how it came out. I was partially inspired by my friend referencing this song while mourning her breakup. So I thought it'd be a good one-shot.
This song is owned/produced by "5 Seconds of Summer", and the title is "Amnesia" if you haven't already caught on.

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