Lost and Broken

I hope one day
This will all go away
And I can be happy again
Without a bunch of mood swings

I hope one day
I can say
"I've survived"
And "It gets better, trust me"
Without lying

I hope one day
I won't be up late at night
Hating myself for being so dumb
Confused by goodbyes
Will they ever stop their play?

I hope one day
I can look up and believe
That He really is there
And I'm not just falling for another fantasy
Created to entertain

I hope one day
I'll be able to trust
Without being afraid
That history will repeat itself
As it always does

I hope one day
I'll finally understand
That being fake won't make me a queen
And it's okay to base my life on what some think is simply a belief

I'm sinking
I'm drowning
I'm thinking
I'm counting
The days until this ends
I guess I really am
Lost and broken