The Show ((Luke Brooks Fanfic))

Chapter 22

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*Bennie’s POV*

I take a seat on the chair next to the table as I sat in silence, not knowing what to say to my mother. Honestly, I don’t really want to say anything. I said my piece yesterday, even if it did hurt her. I actually opened the bottle and let everything flow out.

I don’t want to have to apologise to her, I still have rage flowing through my veins when I think about it. I used to think that everything could be fixed with an apology, as if the words could stop wars and create world peace, but now I know it’s not as simple as that. I now understand that no matter how many times an apology is made, it will never be able to completely wash away all the pain and hurt that has been caused and the tears that have fallen. Forgiveness is the fragrance that flowers give out when they’re crushed.

After my dad left, my life turned around. My life was nearly ruined and it didn’t help with the stupidity of my mother, the pain and sorrow she forced me through. No one should have to deal with being alone and having no one to rely on, it just shouldn’t happen. The smallest things affected me around that time, I still have nightmare even if they’re not often. I cried myself to sleep every night and the things that would come in my room to haunt me put me in an even place. The screams that would escape wouldn’t even affect my mother; they wouldn’t waken her from her drunken state. Nothing would.

My mother takes a seat next to me and places a glass of orange juice along with pancakes and a separate bowl of strawberries. My eyes move around the plate of pancakes and I feel my stomach growl but I don’t eat it.

“Dig in.” Her voice almost reflects the old witch from the myths, trying to get me under her spell.

“I’m not hungry.” I lie, clenching my stomach in hope that it won’t blow my cover.

“Bennie, I’m sorry okay? I have been a bad mother, God knows, I’ve probably won the world’s worst mum award. I know you’re angry with me, hell, I know you’re furious and probably want to rip my head off and I understand where you are coming from but I can’t deal with you hating me forever. What you said last night really hurt, even if it was the truth and I promise I will be there for you more, I will be there when you’re heartbroken, or sad, or happy... Anytime! I have so much to do to make it up to you and I will be fully committed from now until the day I die.” She rushes and I can hear the odd choke in her voice showing on particular words.

I don’t know what to say but the first thing that pops into my head is for her to get herself better. If she wants my forgiveness, she needs to make sure she can help herself. I don’t want her to leave again, but permanently this time.

I nod my head and stand up, copying her. My mum then pulls me into a hug and I hear her sniff. I swallow the lump in my throat and hug her back feeling better. It feels like this is a proper hug, a hug between a mother and a daughter.

She loosens grip on me and smiles.

“You have a party tonight and you’re going to look beautiful. I’ll make sure of it.” She then points to my breakfast and laughs. “Eat that and then meet me upstairs.”

I take a seat and stuff my face with the food.

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*Luke’s POV*

I climb out the back of Beau’s car and tell James to shove all the shit onto the floor. Jai is sitting in the front with Jess on his lap which I’m pretty sure is illegal but they’re it anyway and don’t seem to care so fuck it. I walk up the pathway to Bennie’s house and knock on the door. I’m slightly worried about what she’s going to wear, if it’s the farmer outfit, god help us all. Bennie doesn’t seem like the type of girl to wear little pieces of cloth that barely cover their body which is so hot but as the same time, cheap.

I take a step backwards as the door swings open, revealing Bennie. My mouth drops open as I see her in hair now straight with a hat placed on top, her body is dressed in a white patterned small top thing and matching puffy white shorts, I don’t know how to describe it but fuck. It looks so hot. Her lips are darkish red and I want them on me, now. She steps out the door and shouts goodbye to her mum, I assume. I then walk down to the car with her slowly following behind.

“C’mon.” I say, stopping to wait for her to catch up.

She slightly stumbles in her heels and I grab onto her helping her, I hold her hand doing that cheesy entwined thing and she happily obliges. The car door opens and I haul my body in before leaning towards her as she bends down in attempt to follow me into the back. I wrap my hands around her waist and pull her next to me. She takes a seat and puts her seatbelt across her body and I can’t help but stare at her almost bare legs.

I decide to tease her a little and I put my lips to her ears and whisper:

“You look beautiful.”

I watch the goose bumps rise on her legs and I place my hand on her thigh, rubbing it up and down. She shivers under my touch and smile slightly.

“So do you.” She whispers back and I let out a breathy laugh.

“I can’t wait to take you up to one of the empty bedrooms so I can do things to you.”

She blushes and I take her hand, kissing the knuckles.

“It will be fun, baby.” I say between each kiss.

I then sit still waiting for the car journey to end and the party to begin.