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Your shaking hands slowly unfolding the paper Haseul had given you before sending you a sorrowful look and leaving you alone in your room.
Your breath hitched at the sight of Vivi's familiar handwriting, and began to read.
Dear Y/N,
If you're reading this, I can only imagine that Haseul gave this to you, and not I. And that I am gone.
First of all, I am so sorry I'm not there, I should be there, protecting you like I promised I would. I'm so sorry, I failed you I would like to apologize that I'm not there anymore. I should be right there, beside you. But I'm not, and I can't imagine the pain you are feeling right now. I can, I'm so sorry Y/N. I love you.
When we first met, it was when we were both in our freshmen year of high school. It's been a long time, hasn't it? We've been through so much together, crushes, exams, friends, betrayal, etc... We've even had that one falling out when we were seniors, didn't we? I remember we didn't talk for a whole month. I wish it didn't happen, I can't go without you.
I think that was the worst time of my life, and the time that I finally realized I couldn't live without you.
I asked to meet you at the park, and you were early, even there before I was. Ii was surprised, but I didn't say anything. I sat down beside you and it was silent until the both of us apologized at the same time. We laughed, and after that, it was like nothing had happened in the first place.
A few months later, the night after we graduated, we sat in that exact same spot and you kissed me. I wish I made the first move, but I know I wouldn't, and you knew too.
I'm sorry for leaving you when I promised I would never.
But... just because I'm leaving doesn't mean you can stop your life. I know you, Y/N, don't forget that. Eat. Sleep. Stay hydrated. Haseul and the girls will help you, you will help them. Please don't shut them out, I don't want that.
I won't actually be... leaving you, I'll still be with you. Maybe not physically, but mentally, I will. Right next to you, every step you take, I'll be following behind like a duckling.
Stay healthy, I love you.
Sincerely Love, Vivi
