I arrived at our fave resto exactly 9:00 pm lookong so tired...of everything.
I'm very nervous. what should i tell him? Or should i tell him? How can i act normal infront of him knowing that I'm doubting about what i feel for him?
I just can't say "hey my ex texted me and now I'm confused about what i feel for you"
I don't know why but when Albie texted me i know something was not right. And that's me. I don't know what to do. I really don't know.
My breathing fast and I can't maintain to stay calm.
"Hey, Love! Here!" There he is. James looking so happy because he saw me.
I smiled and ran to him. He hugged me and kissed my forehead "i missed you" he whispered. I smiled bitterly "i missed you too"
"How's your day?" Based on his expression, his very excited to talk to me. "Good. I'm just tired because of work" i replied
His expression suddenly changed "I'm sorry. I should let you rest."
"No, it's okay. I'm fine. Don't worry" i smiled at him. I want to be with him.
We talked about how our day went and random stuff while we eat. Just a normal lovely couple do. Talking and eating. I wished i could do this again with him. I wished this won't be the last one.
But we can't.
I'll enjoy this night, For the last time.
My decision is final. I need to let go of this man before i hurt him more. I can't stand seeing him hurting.
James is too perfect for me. Maybe, we're not meant for each other. Maybe he deserves better than me.
While James is on the bathroom, I'm busy with my phone and reading some tweets
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Don't make it hard for me please. I just want to be with you too but i can't.
"Hey! Let's go? I'll take you home"
"No, i can manage. I have my car. I can't leave it here" excuses. I'm just saving my self from holding on. It's easy to let go this way.
"Okay. Take care, okay?" He hugged me this time more tighter and kissed me in the forehead after. "I love you" he whispered. I don't know what to say. But i replied "I love you too" for the last time.
I started my car engine and look at his face for the last time. I don't want to leave but i can't love him at the moment.
I can't stopped my self from crying. I'm lucky that i got home safe.
The first thing i do is text him.
This is it. Kailangan kong gawin to bago ko madurog lahat ng nagmamahal saakin
James POV
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I knew it! I fucking knew it. The way she act i know something's wrong.
What's wrong with me? Why people always leave me behind? Why people can't love me?
Last night she said "i love you too" but now she said "I'm sorry" and that's fucking hurts
Nadine POV
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Sana nga kami nalang. Bakit kailangan may bumalik?
Bakit kailangan pumili? Bakit kailangan may masaktan?
