Why doesn't anyone love me?

Trustworthy?

I eventually fell asleep after he read to me. I didn't know when I did but I know I did.

I woke up the next day in his arms, and our chests were flush together.

My shirt was off.

My pants were still on.

I panicked and got out of his warming grip. Tears filled my eyes as I realized he might've slept with me while I was sleeping.

Dean wouldn't do that.

Would he?

Dean woke up and noticed me panicking. My wings were shivering and trying to cover me up for protection but I didn't want comfort. I sat at the edge of the bed crying.

"Cas? Cas what's wrong?" Dean asked worriedly and got up.

He almost hugged me but I moved away.

How could he?

I fell asleep.

I thought I loved him.

"Cas please tell me what's wrong."

"Cas?"

"Cas please," Dean begged trying to comfort me but I kept moving away with a whimper.

"Y-you s-s-slept with me y-you asshole!" I yelled in between sobs.

Dean looked at me confused. He then noticed that my shirt was off.

"Cas, if this is because your shirt is off, I took it off of you last night because you kept complaining that it was too tight. Even if I did, you're a virgin right?" Dean asked with comfort and softness.

I nodded.

"Then you would be hurting down there a lot. Are you hurting down there?" Dean asked and I shook my head no.

"See? I didn't do anything to you Cas. We have video cameras everywhere, I promise I didn't do anything to you. Please believe me Cas," Dean said with sadness in his voice.

I looked over at him.

"I'm sorry I didn't believe you Dean. I just... I need to learn to trust you more," I said and wiped away my tears.

Dean hesitantly wiped my tears away as well, and I let him.

"What can I do to gain your trust more?" Dean asked softly.

I thought for a moment.

"Let me hang out with you for the whole day. I want to see what you do," I said blinking away the tears.

Dean looked at me confused but nodded.

"Okay, I have another meeting today but you can come with," Dean said with a small smile.

I smiled back.

"I'm sorry Dean," I said and hugged him.

He hugged me back.

"It's okay Cas, it's okay," he said softly into my ear.

We stayed like that for a while, enjoying each other's warmth, and him wishing that I would gain his trust.