Try Me (Drunk In Love #1)

Chapter Five

I was just fifteen when I left my home. You see, I come from a dysfunctional family. My father is an alcoholic and my mother, a perfectionist. I have two siblings older than me. Let's just say things were kind of heavy. I have never been loved there. Always being degraded because I did not fit the perfect criteria of my mother.

It made me fall into depression at a young age. I have made many mistakes in the past. Habits that I am not proud of till date. But Ty, he loved me.

When I met him, we connected instantly. It was never being friends with us. We both knew we were more than that. Me, Ty and Navea, we were an unbreakable trio.

That's why it's so hard to believe that the two people I love the most can do this to me.

At least I have a place where I can forget my pain, Lush. The only place where I feel like home. I didn't study bartending but somehow had the skills. Which landed me this job.

I wake up dizzy, sunlight stinging my eyes. I see a figure beside me, Tabitha is sleeping on her front. I slowly pull myself up in sitting position.

Tabi stirs beside me then turns on her back, rubbing the sleep from her eyes.
"Hey. How are you feeling?" She asks, her voice deep from sleep.

"Fine for now. What happened?" I try to remember what happened after my panic attack.

"I found you passed out on the floor. I was so fucking scared what happened so I called 911. They sent medics. And they injected some meds into you and said you had an attack. Maybe anxiety or panic, they don't know which." She explains.

"I haven't had one in years." I let out a long sight.

Suddenly I remember what caused me the attack, a picture. Ty and mystery girl. I feel tears pricking my eyes, threatening to come out.

"The picture." I mumble.

"Yes. I'm guessing that's what caused this?" Tabi asks.

I nod my head yes. "Do you know the girl?" I ask even though I know it's a stupid question.

"No." She says quietly. "Come, I'll make you breakfast." She gets up and hold her hand for me.

"You don't have to." I assure her. I put my hand in her and let her lead me to the kitchen.

"What I don't understand is, Tyrone was caught with Navea. Then where does this girl fit in everything?" She states as she eats her omelette.

I shrug my shoulder. Thinking about it again, I feel my face getting hot and that peppery feeling in my nose which happens just before I start crying.

One tear escapes my eye, then another and before I know, I am having a breakdown. Tabitha comes behind me and hug me while I cry into her shoulder.

"Why? What did I do?" I ask while crying.

"I- I come from a family where love was a foreign word for us. I never- I never knew what being loved felt like. But with Ty, I learned how to love. How to give l-love. Where did I go wrong?!" I scream in frustration.

"Listen, Kia. Listen. You did not do anything wrong, okay?" Tabitha holds my hand and reassures me.

"You did everything you can. Kia every relationship have arguments, fights. It doesn't give either one right to cheat. And why do we women always blame ourselves when something goes wrong? Why do you say that you did something wrong? Why can't he be wrong?" She scolds me.

"He is, I'm sorry, a asshole. What he did was an grade A asshole move. If he wanted to breakup, he could have said you. Rather than showing you." She rubs cricles on the back of my hand.

She is right. I did whatever was in my power to make us work. I only wanted to be with him. Even though I didn't knew how to love, for him I learned. I learned to be more expressive. But he just threw it all in my face.

I never imagined anyone else with me beside him. I want to be numb now. I don't want to feel any emotion. I want to be how he is, cold hearted. And I will be that, I will show him what being cold means.