Niki...(Completed & Editing)

chp 16 "realization"

“why?” I asked still shaking in my seat.

Tears willing to come out of my eyes.

Making my whole body numb.

The only feel was the warm hand of him on my cheek.

How could I let him go? My mind was playing tricks with my heart. It was like my ears don’t want to hear the words, neither my mouth wanted to utter a single word. Whenever I opened my mouth the only thing which left my mouth was the air. Without sound effect.

And finally my eyes made it worse by making my vision blurry because of so unwanted and totally not wanted tears. Why can’t they take permission before spilling out like this?

I was in tragic situation and I saw Karan watching me. And doing nothing. I suddenly got a thought in my mind which I thought was right.

“I am dreaming right?” I asked the boy just sitting opposite to me still holding my cheeks.

“pinch me, now. I am sure it’s a dream. Same dream I had before.” I confessed and continued “yes. It’s a dream. But I ended when I cried hard when you left.”

My hand reached to my eyes and touched the salty water that were still making its way out “see I cried. Now it must be over. But its not, so pinch me Karan. I want this dream to break. NOW, Karan pl—“

The next thing I experience was that I was pulled in a tight hug. A bone crasing hug from a the person who I never wanted to get be seprated. The person who was in equally sad as I was, the person whom I love-

Love?

Do I?

If not then why is your heart parted in pieses just by hearing him going? If not then why are you not pulling out the hug just because of the fear that he will leave you if you let it go? Yes you love him.

The violent sobs of mine was slowly becoming soft. Karan holed me in his arm tightly while I reciprocated the same way.

Do I seriously love him. Like love love?

I Dont want any answers right now. I just want to treasure the memory that I know will remain with me forever.

May be I will not get them again.

Love or not. He is my only best friend in have. And I Dont want to losses him.

After a few minutes we pulled apart we saw each other eyes which were still wet, Karan cupped my cheeks again and pulled me closer to  him, and his gentle lips gave me a peak on my forehead.

That was the first time he kissed me. His lips felt so soft on my skin. The kiss that had emotion and worries that no novel could explain me that I have read it so far.
It ment the world to me.

“I will be going tomorrow. Please don’t come to airport to seaoff.” Karan finally spoke after so much silence and bearing my long question.

“why?”

He Dont want me.

“because if you came, I will not be able to go. I cant see you crying” he pinched my cheeks and said “I will try to come back soon.”

He said and started his journey to the front door when I suddenly stopped him by calling him. he stopped and turned around just to see me.

I ran to the door and hugged him again and said “I will miss you. Come back soon please. I will wait for you…. always.”

He patted my hair with one hand while his other hand was patting my back. We pulled apart he just cleaned the tear with his thumb and pinched my nose just to shake it a little, which he always did to annoy me when we were young.

A small smile came on my lips remembering the memory. And I looked at my fav brown orbs which were already viewing me and as I looked up he cupped my cheeks and next the thing I knew was his lips were on mine.

My eyes widen on this reaction what should I do. My mind went blank. Nothing registering.

It was like many butterflies made its way in my stomach and a fire ran across my whole body and was melting my body. He pulled me by my waist and pulled me deeper in him while my hands were playing with his hair.

We parted , our heart beat rate was abnormal and I could feel the heartbeat on my lips ringing in my ear.

My eyes made its way to the face which actually gave me this gave this feeling.

He just patted my head  and with last kiss on my forehead said “always keep smiling.”

"No!I can't keep smiling while you are not here! Remember!" I shouted after him but he left.

And he left me, alone.

And I stood there frozen.

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