Rain

Love and Trust.

I exhaled the smell of smoke that stung my nose. I had now been back home and honestly, I wasn't all excited. I had listened carefully to my grandmothers words about Monte, even though I didn't understand: I still listened. I was over my aunt Crystal's house (who lived in Detroit) I hated being over here, everything over here was just.. ghetto. I watched as everyone yelled loudly, laughing, drinking & smoking.

I've always had a huge family: And my family couldn't get along with each other for 1 million dollars. You had Irca over here, pregnant with her second child, but you also notice that it hasn't stopped her from smoking. You've got my big cousin, KeKe who had been dealing with a abusive babydady. You got my cousin, Déjà who was jealous of anyone that is Skinner than her. I mean - in a black family you've got black problems. And the worst part was, that wasn't even half of it.

"BITCH! I SAID, I SAID, I SAID, I SAID" One of my aunties yelled, they weren't fighting - they just had a hard time explaining nicely. I couldn't even make out what they had been saying because everyone was talking at the same time. This was all too much, and I wasn't in the mood. It was going on 1 am & I was sleepy. Momma was in the other room, smoking & drinking.

Monte probably had been calling her phone, but she was to dumb to actually answer. I wanted to go home now, Monte is probably tripping out. And 9 times out of 10 they'd be arguing and right now, I wasn't even really in the mood. I stand up making my way towards to back where momma is so I can tell her we gotta go before she gets too drunk.

"Momma, come on we gotta go" I say rubbing my eyes. She drank a full cup of Vodka down her throat I rolled my eyes. "Wait Rain, go in the car I'll be out in a minute" She threw me her car keys, I rolled my eyes. We wouldn't be leaving until 5am, and I wasn't about to wait in that car.

I go back to the living room, where everyone else is at. I take a seat on the green broken down couch as I try to rest my eyes, but no success. It was way to loud in here.

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2 hours later, momma was finally ready to go. I didn't even wanna go home tonight because I already knew Monte had been pissed, and my momma was drunk.

I make my way to the front seat, as momma got in the car starting the engine and turning the radio up way to loudly. She always did that when she was drunk, this wasn't about to be a pretty ride. Keyshia Cole Love blasted on the radio. I saw as my momma swerved threw a couple of lanes. "Mama, slow down" I worried. I wasn't trying to get into a car accident.

She remained silent, we were now on 10 mile I already knew we were a few minutes til' home by my surroundings. She used the wrong lane to make a U-turn luckily no cops or cars were around. We had been in the drive way, and I saw Monte's car packed in the driveway. Hysteria took over my body, I knew that he wouldn't be happy.

We exited the car, locking it. Momma seemed to be a little more sober now that we were home. I saw mommas room light turned on, I knew she'd probably take too long to get her key so I pulled mines out of my purse. When I unlocked it we entered the house. I smelt chicken as my mouth got watery.

"Where have you been?" Monte questioned as my momma took her shoes off, I felt my hysteria grow even more because they were about too fight. Momma ignored him by walking upstairs. She knew what she was doing, she was sober enough to know. Monte looked at me, waiting for an answer.

"We went to my aunties house." I reply dryly, I didn't owe him any type of explanation. I began walking upstairs, I wish he would try & stop me I thought to myself. I heard the shower water running indicating that she was in the shower. I sigh before walking down the hallway towards my room. I shut my door before changing into my pajama pants & a lose t-shirt.

I'll take a shower tomorrow I thought. I heard the shower water turn off. I heard Monte's deep footsteps coming up the stairs. I opened my door on purpose to see what was happening. I saw momma with MY pink towel wrapped around her body. Monte followed her in their room, before slamming it. Rude ass. I took that as my chance to lean against the wall & listen to their conversation.

"Chanel, I'm gonna ask you one more time; Where were you?" He raised his voice a little causing me to jump.

"I was at my sisters house, damn" She replied; obviously annoyed.

"And you couldn't answer the phone?" He hit something that I couldn't describe. I was now scared out of my life.

"Quit being a bitch. My phone died! And your ass won't let me use your charger." She spat back, me & Monte knew she struck a nerve. I wanted to go in their and stop her, but I couldn't.

Bam! A loud sound triggered threw the house. I jumped back, walking into the hallway. I didn't knew what was going on. I waited until momma came back out of the room, after 2 minutes she came back with a bruise on her jaw. I began clenching my fist, Someone needs to punch that nigga in his jaw. I'm so tired of this, of him period. His whole existence is irrelevant

Tears fell down her cheek as I held my arms out for her to hug. "I love you" I whispered in her ear as I hugged her tight. This moment meant so much. I heard the tv turn on, and Monte's big ass footsteps go back to the bed. I rolled my eyes, coward. Only a coward would hit a woman & think it's okay.

We climbed in my bed as she wrapped her tiny arms around my waist, "I love you, Rain"