Rain

Stressed Out.

The next morning, I woke up feeling relieved on about the previous events from last night.

I yawned, stretching. My phone buzzed I unlocked it, seeing text from C.J

My Hamburger: Good morning fathead

I decided I'd call him later. I jumped up at the smell of breakfast. I walked down our stairs to see mama cooking eggs, grits and bacon.

"Good morning baby." She happily greeted me. I give her an awkward smile she was in a good mood this morning.

"Good morning.. ma"

"Breakfast is almost done go upstairs and get dressed so I can take you out school shopping." She cheered. I nodded my head running upstairs, I unlocked my phone and called C.J

"Hello?"

"C.J!" I screamed into the phone.

"Rain why the fuck you yellin? Lower ya' voice, my headphones are in."

I burst into laughter, "What are you doing?"

"I was listening my bitch Beyoncé until you called a nigga like you was dyin"

"C.J that's not funny!" I pouted even though he couldn't see me.

"Alright alright you know you my bitc- I mean girl" I could almost feel his smirk on the other side of the line.

"Hmm, but um I'm about to go shopping with my mom.. later on we can meet up at our spot?"

Me and C.J have gotten so close over the last 2 months. Our favorite spot was at the lake only about 20 minutes when your walking.

"Fasho aye I gotta go ill hit you up later good lookin'"

"Bye" we both hung up.

I then grabbed my towel, underwear, a tampon, panties & bra for the bathroom. I stripped out of my pajamas before stepping into the shower, turning the water on. I decided to play a little music. I put on "I Like" by Jeremiah.

"I'd like to take the time.. to love your body to kiss & rub yo' body girl say oooo lala" I sang along. I grabbed my Bath and Body works Warm Sugar Vanilla shower gel. After washing up a few times I stepped out of the shower debating on what to where. I walked across to hall to my room with my robe on because I had lotioned up. Put on my under garments and dried off.

Once I got to my room I untied my robe exposing my nude colored bra with my matching underwear. I swear, when your panties and bra match you feel like you have your life together.

I found the perfect outfit which consisted on a floral printed dress that stopped a few inches above my knees with my MK sandals and I put my hair into a bun.

When I was done it seemed like it took my mama forever to get after 30 minutes on waiting, she was finally ready.

"You ready baby?" she asked smiling. I nodded my head, "I've been ready"

there was an awkward silence in the car, so I pulled out my phone and headphones. I turned on Jhene Aiko while bopping my head to the beat of her music. "Cos' if I never have you.. then I could never lose you" I found myself mumbling.

My mind went right to C.J. I did like him, I had to admit but I wasn't into dating and I couldn't risk the heart brake. A lot of times I hurt peoples feelings trying to save mines, but I don't be intentionally doing that shit.

I just had to find out the hard way that nobody gives 2 flying fucks about my ass

I felt a light tap on my shoulder, "Rain were here," Mama said.

I nodded my head unbuckling my seat belt and putting my phone away.

We were at Fair-lane mall.

"What's the first store you wanna go into?" Mama asked, I thought for a second. "Forever 21"

R A I N

"And ma, you should've seen the look on her face! It was hilarious" I uncontrollably laughed along with mama.

"Girl you silly I'm tired." She yawned.

We were both exhausted, I got so many clothes I have enough to last me 2 more years we spent over 3,000 dollars. I got like 5 pair of uggs.

"Rain I have something to tell you.." I felt my stomach turn a bit causing me to get this sickning feeling inside of me.

"What's up ma?"

She sighed before putting her forhead into her hands rubbing her temples with her fingers

"I'm pregnant, I re-connected with your father, and your grandmother died."

I felt a lump in my throat "Whaa-what?"

It's been a while since I cried but the tears just came running down my face I put my face in the palm of my hands.

"Why, why, why" I seemed as if every time my voice got louder the tears came down more slowly.

"Baby I'm sorry," Mama came near my rubbing my back.

I lost my grandmother man, I loved her with everything in me. "Are you really pregnant?"

She looked down and nodded her head, "Yes." I already knew it was by Monte I got so upset and disappointed.

"Just take me home"

As I sat in the car tears kept running down my face from time to time mam would look at me from the corner or her eye. "Mama I have something to tell you"

"Talk it"

"Monte robbed a bank I was there while the whole thing happened" the care swerved almost hitting a huge u-haul truck.

"WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?"

I instantly got scared, "M-Monte robbed a-a bank" I stuttered.

"Swear"

"Ma I swear on everything!"

"Shit" she hissed. "You don't tell anyone else about this, understand?" I nodded my head quickly.

"I'll handle his ass" She spoke before speeding away. Oh Lord.

When we got home I started to think of when my mom said she re-connected with my father. Though I was angry as hell with him, I still wanted to build a relationship with him because I thought it was important.

As I came from the kitchen I saw Monte smoking a blunt, I gave him a glare before stomping upstairs and slamming my door.

I looked at the clock 7:36, I forgot all about C.J. "Shit!" I cursed to myself. I jumped off of my bed, I knew that it would get a little chilly so I grabbed my brown leather jacket before slipping my shoes back on.

"Ma I'm going to take a walk!" I announced speeding out of the door.

I hope C.J. is still there.

R A I N

"Hey" I gave C.J a friendly hug.

"Wassup ma, I was bout' to leave" He sat down.

"I'm glad you didn't I really need somebody to talk to."

"What's wrong"

"My grandmother died, my moms pregnant by a low-life, and my dad re-connected with my mom. School starts in a damn week! This is too much" tears ran down my face

He pulled me into a hug. I sobbed on his chest "What did I ever do to deserve this?" I cried harder he rubbed my back comforting me. He gave me a kiss on the forehead. "I'm so stressed.."

"What am I gonna do C.J?"

"Aye I ain't no Dr.Phil but I'm here for you babygirl so don't worry. You to pretty to be crying" He lifted my face up, planting a soft kiss on my lips.

I needed that.